the weight that's so heavily on my mind
I don't usually remember my dreams. When I do, it's because it has so much meaning to me, something I only wish would come true: last night I dreamt of you. I remembered this dream so clearly for some reason, I guess because the subject really hits home.
Lately, our relationship or lack there of, has turned very bitter. Outside voices, as well as the voices bottled up within ourselves, have spoken up numerous times ending in pain, you hurting me and I returning the favor. We have both put up our defenses very well, except we're doing something we promised not to, the pain, the hurt. It has been weighing on my mind so heavily, knowing that the people we show each other are superficial.
Last night in my dream, men and women were armed, ready to engage in battle against.....one another. I'm sure you can only guess who was at the head of each army, yes you guessed right.
A lot of fighting went on, but the funny part is that there was no blood spilt, no people being stabbed with sharp weapons: they were all blunt. Soon, the fighting turned into a playful banter back and forth. When night fell over the battle, everyone fell asleep peacefully, man and woman side by side. The only two people that were left untouched by night was the two opponents who had started it all.
They met each other and seemed to lay everything aside, all the pain and hurt that was caused. The time they spent together was full of laughter, sharing thoughts and feelings, just as friends do. The only feeling I can remember being associated with this dream was just the feeling of being with my best friend. I loved you once, I still love you but only in a different way.
That's all I wish for us, that became a dream.