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just now, when i was mixing that dry cheese stuff into my easymac, everything became clear. or rather, i understood something mikaela said to me a few days ago. she was talking about this boy she's sort of dating now, and explaining how he likes her more that she likes him because "she's in love with a boy at brown." it took me a flicker of a moment, but she was talking about her best friend. her soul mate. and she said... well, she said something that confused me more, relating the situation to my life. but i knew it wasn't true... and as i was stirring my easymac this evening, it came over me that it wasn't true. and i know it isn't. and i don't even feel that way at all. and i sort of felt free. infatuation fluttered away into a swirl of cheesy noodles. i think it was the best bowl of easymac i've ever had.