confused stage
this is my first entry using the MB. i must say the year is ending well by being well accompanied by goody friends.
Met lots of new friends and I guess i'm starting to like meeting new people.
you know.. i have always adore someone someone who can set her mind to something and just do it. i want to be someone like that, then i realise i cant find something i really want to do in life. its the same case for love life. I used to feel there is no guy that I can totally fall in love for. So i took no interest in thinking about getting into a r.s. And its just wrong to rush into one.
well.. its coming to the end of year and there is someone that I have been thinking about. and i'm still unsure with everything now. but i know i found someone who i like. =) its a good thing isnt it. to like someone. its been a loong time, with pondering and stuff. and i have always been keeping options open. till recently. i thought i should set out to just like this one guy. the thing is.. its suppose to be a secret. no one around him is to know yet, at least till i'm sure.
but at this point.. when i'm still feeling unsure.. his best friend knows. my close mates in cell knows. and I cant help but feel worried, anxious and insecure. so i start thinking whether its right again.
cos. i know a r.s is not about just the two of us. I asked myself last night whether we are going to glorify god more... and i gave a maybe, i would love to. i asked myself... whether its better to not like him? my feel is more to a yes at this point.
and its quite sad to feel that way.
i will love to meet up with su ann, jasmine, christabel, jo, mui and take a look at nb gals again asap. it will certainly brighten my spirit by just seeing everyone.
Met lots of new friends and I guess i'm starting to like meeting new people.
you know.. i have always adore someone someone who can set her mind to something and just do it. i want to be someone like that, then i realise i cant find something i really want to do in life. its the same case for love life. I used to feel there is no guy that I can totally fall in love for. So i took no interest in thinking about getting into a r.s. And its just wrong to rush into one.
well.. its coming to the end of year and there is someone that I have been thinking about. and i'm still unsure with everything now. but i know i found someone who i like. =) its a good thing isnt it. to like someone. its been a loong time, with pondering and stuff. and i have always been keeping options open. till recently. i thought i should set out to just like this one guy. the thing is.. its suppose to be a secret. no one around him is to know yet, at least till i'm sure.
but at this point.. when i'm still feeling unsure.. his best friend knows. my close mates in cell knows. and I cant help but feel worried, anxious and insecure. so i start thinking whether its right again.
cos. i know a r.s is not about just the two of us. I asked myself last night whether we are going to glorify god more... and i gave a maybe, i would love to. i asked myself... whether its better to not like him? my feel is more to a yes at this point.
and its quite sad to feel that way.
i will love to meet up with su ann, jasmine, christabel, jo, mui and take a look at nb gals again asap. it will certainly brighten my spirit by just seeing everyone.