Letter to YOU
Hey Sister,
So I've come to a decision. Basically, I've always written as though no one is reading this. I always assumed no one was! Now I know you are... well, I don't want to have to change MY writing style or MY journal just because you choose to read it. So consider yourself forewarned - I will write about whatever I want here. You don't have to read it; therefore, if you choose to, no holding anything in it against me. Deal? Consider it a don't ask if you don't wanna know kind of deal - by reading, you're asking. I think this is fair!
Sorry about the alleged angry post about you though - I really DON'T remember it, but I can imagine it did exist. Bare in mind though (bare? bear?) that I didn't know anyone was reading this, especially you! And it's my journal, it's where I can write my stupid angry posts that mean nothing at all, and I look back on a week later and think, "Oh my god I was a hellabitch that day!". But it's where I write things because I want to be able to vent, let them go, and not feel guilty for it! Which now I kind of do, which defeats the purpose of my safe haven sanctuary journal. Regardless though, I can only imagine how terrible it was if I actually took it down (because normally I just leave stuff up so I remember what I wrote, even if I don't mean it anymore later) so I am sorry you saw it (and that I thought it at one point!).
Anyways, letter complete - on to journal post. Enter at your own discretion.
Love you :)
So today, after work, Liz called me while she was drunk - no blaming her there, it is St. Patty's day after all, and only my bad luck I worked tonight, and it did make a nice change from my spectacular drunken mess last Sunday - and basically started rambling about how much she likes me. No change in the girlfriend thing, but she did say how much she likes me, likes spending time with me, and thinks it's unfair that she isn't ready to commit to me - she feels I am a girlfriend kind of girl, that I deserve that much, and that she feels bad she can't give me what I deserve. I, of course, told her that was bullshit - that if I wasn't happy with what we have I wouldn't be doing it, and that I don't want a girlfriend for now, since what we are doing now is working for us so why mess with it? I did tell her though that one of these days I will want a girlfriend - talking months of dating down the road - but we could take from there how she feels about it and what we do. Still, happy as I am with what we have now, it was nice to hear that reassurance that she does like me from her anyways.
So I've come to a decision. Basically, I've always written as though no one is reading this. I always assumed no one was! Now I know you are... well, I don't want to have to change MY writing style or MY journal just because you choose to read it. So consider yourself forewarned - I will write about whatever I want here. You don't have to read it; therefore, if you choose to, no holding anything in it against me. Deal? Consider it a don't ask if you don't wanna know kind of deal - by reading, you're asking. I think this is fair!
Sorry about the alleged angry post about you though - I really DON'T remember it, but I can imagine it did exist. Bare in mind though (bare? bear?) that I didn't know anyone was reading this, especially you! And it's my journal, it's where I can write my stupid angry posts that mean nothing at all, and I look back on a week later and think, "Oh my god I was a hellabitch that day!". But it's where I write things because I want to be able to vent, let them go, and not feel guilty for it! Which now I kind of do, which defeats the purpose of my safe haven sanctuary journal. Regardless though, I can only imagine how terrible it was if I actually took it down (because normally I just leave stuff up so I remember what I wrote, even if I don't mean it anymore later) so I am sorry you saw it (and that I thought it at one point!).
Anyways, letter complete - on to journal post. Enter at your own discretion.
Love you :)
So today, after work, Liz called me while she was drunk - no blaming her there, it is St. Patty's day after all, and only my bad luck I worked tonight, and it did make a nice change from my spectacular drunken mess last Sunday - and basically started rambling about how much she likes me. No change in the girlfriend thing, but she did say how much she likes me, likes spending time with me, and thinks it's unfair that she isn't ready to commit to me - she feels I am a girlfriend kind of girl, that I deserve that much, and that she feels bad she can't give me what I deserve. I, of course, told her that was bullshit - that if I wasn't happy with what we have I wouldn't be doing it, and that I don't want a girlfriend for now, since what we are doing now is working for us so why mess with it? I did tell her though that one of these days I will want a girlfriend - talking months of dating down the road - but we could take from there how she feels about it and what we do. Still, happy as I am with what we have now, it was nice to hear that reassurance that she does like me from her anyways.