Are we bridges, are we bells?
are we silencing ourselves?
Up to heaven, down to hell... sing it again.
Life as I know it is nothing like I remember. The good the bad and the beautiful all seem to go hand in hand. I've found myself surrounded by loneliness but still I can't help but feel crowded.
I miss those I love the most. I'm over the the belief that I alone fuck everything up in my life. Life is more like a really sluggish escalator than it is like stairs... it encourages you while also slowing you down.
I'm finally doing things I need to. I'm going to record my personal writings and music finally.
Within the next week the EP, "Narrative of a Native" will be underway.
I'm excited about it though I'm also sort of already over it.
I'm over a lot of things recently... mostly myself and false hope and uncertainty.
I feel I've grown up a lot, while other seem to de-evolve to lesser beings... growing more shallow and turning into simple-minded creatures.
Don't be a cunt and think I'm speaking entirely in spacifics... that's narrow-minded.
I"m not arrogant I still loathe myself mostly. I just have lost faith.
This is a content post, because I am content... with my takeout from P.F. Chang's and glass of wine in my room, alone.
I make do... still I am not happy.
Happiness is something lost in the past, in staring at the ceiling while falling asleep next to someone you love.
Things will never be the same, but why do they diminish... shouldn't they evolve and learn and grow and prosper?
I guess all good things come from initial risks that not all are willing to take or even care to for that matter.
This is where faith is lost, nee this is where faith is let down... sitting dormant waiting to be shown truth.
Up to heaven, down to hell... sing it again.
Life as I know it is nothing like I remember. The good the bad and the beautiful all seem to go hand in hand. I've found myself surrounded by loneliness but still I can't help but feel crowded.
I miss those I love the most. I'm over the the belief that I alone fuck everything up in my life. Life is more like a really sluggish escalator than it is like stairs... it encourages you while also slowing you down.
I'm finally doing things I need to. I'm going to record my personal writings and music finally.
Within the next week the EP, "Narrative of a Native" will be underway.
I'm excited about it though I'm also sort of already over it.
I'm over a lot of things recently... mostly myself and false hope and uncertainty.
I feel I've grown up a lot, while other seem to de-evolve to lesser beings... growing more shallow and turning into simple-minded creatures.
Don't be a cunt and think I'm speaking entirely in spacifics... that's narrow-minded.
I"m not arrogant I still loathe myself mostly. I just have lost faith.
This is a content post, because I am content... with my takeout from P.F. Chang's and glass of wine in my room, alone.
I make do... still I am not happy.
Happiness is something lost in the past, in staring at the ceiling while falling asleep next to someone you love.
Things will never be the same, but why do they diminish... shouldn't they evolve and learn and grow and prosper?
I guess all good things come from initial risks that not all are willing to take or even care to for that matter.
This is where faith is lost, nee this is where faith is let down... sitting dormant waiting to be shown truth.