oh god

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now im positive of it-this is the worst day of my life
the man i love more than anything in the world thinks im cheating on him. again. i couldnt even imagine doing that. seriously- i yell at people that cheat on other people, i couldnt even imagine doing it to someone that i care so much for
god i miss him
i havent talked to him in so long and now that hes mad at me... i just cant take it
he thinks im unloyal
that kills me
i want him here so i can tell him straight in his eyes but i dont think hes ever going to want to even look at me now
and the one time he's online im out kayaking
wow. this sucks.

regarding to wut i wrote earlier...
i didnt ever take off my shirt
the farthest i went was give andy a hug
for like a second

i miss him
so much

and now my best friend is moving away.
GREAT.
y do i even bother?
he doesnt like me anymore, but i no more than anything that i still love him