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why is it that my stupid emotions have to go back andforth. is he just simply a jerk? i dont wanna believe that. i dunno. people say he is. i mean he was kinda some last year but it thought that was pretty much gone, im not so sure anymore. i want things to be like they were last weekend. that felt so awesome. it lasted for like 4 days. now it feels like we arent even together. it feels so distant. i dont like that. the way i felt just a mere like 5 days ago feels gone. its like i never see him. we had a kinda not really at all fight thing tues cuz he was being a jerk. i ignored him for a couple of periods and he got mad at that. he came up to me and put his arm around me and said he was sorry. sounds sweet right? well i wondered why he sounded fake when he said that. i found out my friend had to tell him to apoligize. if he knows he hurt me he should know to apologize on his own. i dont wanna giveup on this. like when everything is good with him and im with him it feels awesome and i dont wanna lose that. sometimes he just seems so selfish. maybe im justbein picky? well i have more to tell but my computer battery is about to die so im gonna finish later.
(alex if u happened to read this itd be great if u dont bring any of this up. im using this to write how i feel. im not tryin to tell u anything by doin it, so ya.. please just dont mention it.)
(alex if u happened to read this itd be great if u dont bring any of this up. im using this to write how i feel. im not tryin to tell u anything by doin it, so ya.. please just dont mention it.)