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today was crazy. i was so tired i freakin felt likei was high icould barely move and i had crazy eyes bc i randomly stayed up till 3 last nite for no reason at all im just a freak like that. we went to visit my momma at the hospital and even though she got a common surgery done its just hard to see her in pain, and soout of it. it made me sad. it was like the seetest thing watchin my dad help my mom. i know its my parents but it was so sweet. i am so surprised how much my feelings are runnin back with him. its like they are cominback so quick and strong and more than they have been before. this whole deal is just freakin me out. i didnt think my feelings were gonna come back this much. its really throwin me for a loop. its hard to explain but geez. i just cant get him outta my head and i dunno. ihavent felt like this in a long time. i dont wanna keep talkin about it and jinx it bc the more i think about somethin the more i doubt it. its just so wierd how he other 2 times we went out i wasnt sure and a possible breakup was always on my mind and this time its not really an option at all. hes said that if i broke up with him or it didnt work this time it would probly be over for good and to my surprise justthinkin about losin him is really hard. i dont wanna seem obessive bc im not i just have a lot on my mind thats all. i have butterflies in my stomach constantly. ijust cant believe how diffrt it is this time. ok im gonna shut up about it really. ok im gonna go takea shower so my insomniacness dosent attack me tonite! haha