0006 x (Introduction) Don't you think I know who I am?
U S A G I
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Birth Name: Maria
Alias: Mia (or 'Ria) by friends
Mousy by guildies
Squeakers by boyfriend
Koukla by father
Age: 24 as of January 1, 1989
Gender: Female
Status: Taken
Child(ren): Nicholas. 4 years old as of August 12, 2008. Male.Personality: Coy, curious, buoyant, kittenish, sinister
Nationality: 50% Greek - 50% Irish (born in America, father from Milos, Greece)
Location: Connecticut, USA
Originally From: Long Island, New York, USA
Interests & Likes*: Yoga, exercise, playing games, laughing, watching movies, watching anime, reading (books;manga; comics), listening to music, writing, baking, arts and crafts, trying and learning new things, travel, spending time with the kiddo, relaxing, living life, having fun, piercings, humanitarianism, watching snow or thunder storms, cuddling, pillow fights, leaving obnoxious/cute voice mails and texts to the boyfriend, singing lullabies and reading bedtime stories.
Dislikes: Arrogance, fighting, bad manners, people who cant drive even during clear conditions, halitosis, fear, failure, getting injured
Profession: Homemaker, mother - looking to furthereducation
Anime: Trigun, Gungrave, Escaflowne, Howl's Moving Castle, Full Metal Alchemist, Bleach, Sailor Moon (R, S, SuperS, Stars), Chobits, DigiCharat, Outlaw Star, Tenchi Muyo, Magical Girl Pretty Sammy, Rozen Maiden, .hack//SIGN, Card Captor Sakura, DearS, Ah! My Goddess, Kiddy Grade, Candidate for Goddess, YuYuHakusho, Slayers, Dragon Half, Gundam Wing, Pokémon, Digimon, Excel Saga, Puni Puni Poemi, Potemayo, Urusei Yatsura, Ranma 1/2, Gravitation, Rurouni Kenshin, InuYasha, Elven Lied, Golden Boy, Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind, Princess Mononoke, Revolutionary Girl Utena, Princess Tutu, Angelic Layer, Spice and Wolf, Ninja Scrolls, Wicked City, Magnetic Rose, Kodomo no Omocha, etc.
Manga: Trigun Maximum, Gundam Wing, Sailor Moon, Guardian Angel Getten, .hack//Legend of the Twilight, Tenchi Muyo, DigiCharat, Steel Angel Kurumi, ElectricsTale of Pikachu, etc.
Movies: Enchanted, Thor, Ironman 1&2, The Dark Knight, The Lord of the Rings,The Hobbit, Cinderella, The Fox and the Hound, Hercules! (danced to Zero to Hero in 1998 dance recital, individual picture), Snow White, Sleeping Beauty, Pan's Labyrinth, Labyrinth, Princess Bride, Fantasia, The Swan Princess, Beauty & The Beast, Suicide Circle, Dead Silence, The Omen, Tucker & Dale vs Evil, Shaun of the Dead, Hot Rod, Azumi, Shadow of the Wraith, The Eye 2, The Ring, Final Destination, Silent Hill
Games: World of Warcraft, Portal, Plants vs Zombies, Darkstalkers, Everquest II, The Elder Scrolls: Skyrim, Kingdom of Loathing, Kongregate, Bored - Nyan Cat Fly, Tales of the Abyss, Super Smash Brothers (N64 & Game Cube), Pokémon Red/Blue/Yellow/Gold/Silver/Crystal/Saphire/Ruby/Emerald & White, Pokémon Snap, Kingdom Hearts, Legend of Zelda Majora's Mask/Twilight Princess/Four Seasons/A Link to the Past, Street Fighter, Tekken, Mortal Kombat, Summon Night, Star Ocean, Final Fantasy, Chrono Trigger, Baten Kaitos, Mario Cart, Super Mario World. These days I mostly play on the N64, Game Boy DS, Playstation.
Music Interest: Vocaloid, hide, Malice Mizer, Sid**, Namie Amuro, BoA, The Pillows, The Seatbelts, Yuki Kajiura, Emilie Autumn, Tori Amos, Imogen Heap, Kerli, Idina Menzel, Dresden Dolls, Garbage, Cindergarden, Flogging Molly, Reel Big Fish, Goldfinger, Fall Out Boy, Panic! At The Disco, Less Than Jake, Nine Inch Nails, Blue October, Tommy Lee, Jack's Mannequin, Something Corporate, Mindless Self Indulgence, Shinedown, Megadeth, Rob Zombie, Korn, Godsmack, Danzig, Avenged Sevenfold, Alice in Chains, Zug Izland, Van Halen, Led Zeppelin, Def Leppard, Taproot, Three Days Grace, Three Doors Down, System of A Down, Tool, Stone Sour, Pearl Jam, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Guns 'n Roses, Disturbed, Tantric, Deftones, Orgy, Fleetwood Mac, Tripod, Davinci's Notebook, Paul and the Storm, Lemon Demon.
** I left my renai album in Florida. Bah!
Description
I was pretty much a gypsy for a while, until I found my way up north. I've been living in Connecticut for a while now with my boyfriend, Robert, who I nicknamed Beau-bear or Rob-bear (I have my reasons.) I've known him for quite some time now and I trusted him enough for the second time to put my life in his hands. The first time in which he literally saved my life and is doing a good job of bringing peace into it. Definitely a positive influence! My beau-bear has a masters degree in economics, where as his best friend (our roommate) went to school for computer science and excels in math. Let's just say conversations never get boring. Well, at least until math enters the equation - then I cant follow it.
I don't always say the right things at exactly the right times. I acknowledge in the past I've said some really stupid things but since then I found out where all my animosity stemmed from and have been able to gain control of myself. I finally went back to the hometown in December 2012 and discovered a dark side of my past which I've completely blocked from my memory up until now. I lost my innocence as a child, and because of that I was a very confused and isolated person. Making friends didn't come easy because I wasn't able to trust or open up my heart to anyone. Agoraphobia is also another thing that I have been trying to conquer because of it. I'm not perfect, I know I'm not perfect but I'll try to obtain a normal life from here on out. The best thing I've ever did though was get out of a bad situation which started in 2007. My life started to come out of a downward spiral in 2010, especially since I was trying to give my son a better life. I've made it my oath not to become an alcoholic and to not pick up the smoking habit and to set a good example for him, and so far I've done a good job.
Currently I'm trying to teach myself how to become a better cook. It's not as easy as it is on World of Warcraft, that is for sure. But I guess in time it will be a piece of cake with more patience and practice. On the side I'm also trying to do projects including but not limited to the use of PERLER beads because I figure making pixel art for real life decoration in the home is kind of cute in a way. And another goal I have is increasing my skill in sewing and embroidery. I want to make cute costumes and clothing for not only my self but for my child and future children. : )
I guess at the end of the day I'm trying to finally grow up and take in as much knowledge as possible to be a good mother figure. Teaching myself to cook better to ensure Nicholas grows up with good habits rather than the bad ones I picked up through my childhood. Our house is currently a no smoking zone. I want what is best for my kiddo and for his friends if they were to come around and play video games or even sports in the back yard - rather than have the house smelling like a giant ashtray.
I guess my only bad habit these days is from time to time I bake. I do what I can so I can see Nicholas light up with a smile or hear a laugh. My son Nicholas, Robert and a lot of my friends have been positive influences on my life and the reasons I actually enjoy waking up in the morning. I'm happier these days. They are the sun, earth and stars to my moon - for that, I ❤ them.
Currently in the process of making Nicholas a cute room, too.
I like making friends.
I like helping others.
But let me make myself clear: I will no longer put myself in the position where anyone will take advantage of me especially by someone who considers themselves as a friend. I've had it happen in the past. I don't like it. If you put yourself in the position I was in, in the past - you probably wouldn't like it, too. Especially in the end feeling tossed away like a rag doll someone got bored of playing with. That's another reason why I couldn't stay with my ex.
I was isolated from the outside world for a few years and lost a lot of friends because of it. My ex didn't like me even talking to my parents or brothers - and said it was 'us against the world, like Bonnie and Clyde.' I didn't want to continue living my life in a basement or facing eviction because he wanted to splurge rent money on meaningless things or what ever he wanted to spend it on instead of taking care of our newborn. Let alone having a boyfriend coming home commenting about girls he's seen that had entered his work or at fast food locations even while I was pregnant. You know, as he would call it, eye candy. Also prevented me from cutting my hair because if I did he said he would shave it all off and dump me because he didn't want to be seen 'dating a f@&,' as he put it.
Things get better.
After the split up I managed to find myself again when I started dating my boyfriend, Robert. I met him playing World of Warcraft during a PvP session years prior. Definitely my better half that loves me unconditionally, and I can say feelings are mutual. After everything I've been through in the past I can say that this was a breath of fresh air. I guess I can say I survived Hell to realize how important things in life are and plan on not taking most things for granted. I might occasionally be a klutz , but I think I'm on a better path than what I was. I might suffer from occasional depression due to a lot of things, but Robert is good about comforting me and being a shoulder I clean lean on. I know there have been those days where I try hiding it from my son, but sometimes he's capable of seeing through my guise. It's not healthy, I know. But I'm getting better day by day. At least now I'm being more productive than usual, and leaning towards positive goals.
- The start of 2012 was a little rough for me with the car accident. The months afterwards were nothing but extensive therapy and caudal epidural injections. I'm still looking at more therapy in the future. But I proved that I was not going to let that keep me down. And it wasn't going to ruin my dreams or prevent me from living with the person I love the most and having a normal family.
I have resolutions for this year ! !
2013. I plan on keeping them. Or at least a majority of them. Seems simple enough. Who knows? Maybe they'll stick for years to come. One of the big ones is dropping the consumption of carbonated drinks like soda - even diet. Limiting the consumption of sweets is going to be a tough one, especially since I want to pick up baking. The ones I see as being easily obtainable is getting active and positive. The crafts I can do on the side though. Oh, another one I could add is being better at video games and maybe one day kicking my boyfriend's butt at some of them. Robert doesn't like losing. Especially when it comes to Mario Cart 64.
I need a little more: control, strength, wisdom, courage, confidence, ambition, flexibility
I get rid of: a few pounds, inferiority complex, negativity thoughts
Oh, and I eventually would like to participate in cos-play one day. I guess that could constitute as a resolution. It just feels like I've been missing out on fun for the past couple of years. Or at least it's my idea of fun.
In the future I'll try updating this post and make it organized. ❤
Hope you don't mind the clutter. Especially since I'm still working out some kinks.
I noticed that it likes automatically excluding letters that I keep going back
and fixing after I post. Then I have to go into the HTML and insert them there.
Weird.