can't sleep....awesome

[usaffalcon15]

its 300 degrees in my room
i'm trying to sleep
i have 10000000 things on my mind.
not a good situation.
Joe called me probably 4 times today
hes having problems with his girlfriend
i won't go in to details
but today was a barbeque at whitman square
it was okay
brandon and earl went
along with a lot of other people
a lot of faces i haven't seen in a long time
like i said, okay.
the only problem was i'm not real good friends with anyone in that crowd
so it was kinda awkward for me.
idk
i can't sleep
this is awful
i just want to sleep
part of me is so happy with where i am in life
and the other part of me is rather unhappy.
i have lots of friends, i have great parents (who can't get along).
thats part of it thats frustrating
and while everyone around me is having relationship problems
i still want one.
i'm out of my mind
i live in 3 different states at different parts of the year
and i still want a girlfriend.
what the fuck is wrong with me?
i even have someone to have some fun with
yet i want more
its not even her that i'm falling for her

i need to meet new people

or at least new women

i love my male friends
bros before hoes right?
yes, and a summer girlfriend would be nice.
fuck this
i'm trying this sleep thing again.