.sing like no ones listening &&dance like no ones watching.
uhmm....
it's been an ok kind of week. i can't even remember everything i did during the week.....
but i do know that i learned a few very important lessons.
and just found out some interesting things about myself and my "friends" that i should have realized sooner....
most importantly || people, even best friends, can not be counted on for anything. but i guess it's good for me that i know things she doesn't....she'll be the one getting hurt, not me.. but it still hurts me.
also || all of the boys/guys i have met so far (especially the ones in the army) are such a waste of time. i THOUGHT i'd found one worth spending time with, but i was very very wrong. so yah...like i said in my last entry, i'm just done w/ guys for now. it's not worth bein upset over anymore.
people, in general, can NOT be trusted. pretty sure that Marie is the only person i trust completely anymore.
i don't even trust my own sister.....i KNOW she's lying to me about things. and the fact that she doesn't even defend me when her friends all call me a bitch and other sweet little names. well, lets just say that doesn't feel so good.
and it feels like there's something between me and my "best friend" now...because of something stupid that happened the other night at a show/concert. well, not even happened, just a situation. now every time i talk to her it feels like there's this huge gap in-between us. i'm walking on egg shells and they're about to crack.
things with my dad, as usual, are off and on. one day we're great, and he couldn't be happier. the next day he's ready to kick me out of the house and cut me off completely. ya never know with that man...too much stress for someone his height. haha
♥
it's been an ok kind of week. i can't even remember everything i did during the week.....
but i do know that i learned a few very important lessons.
and just found out some interesting things about myself and my "friends" that i should have realized sooner....
most importantly || people, even best friends, can not be counted on for anything. but i guess it's good for me that i know things she doesn't....she'll be the one getting hurt, not me.. but it still hurts me.
also || all of the boys/guys i have met so far (especially the ones in the army) are such a waste of time. i THOUGHT i'd found one worth spending time with, but i was very very wrong. so yah...like i said in my last entry, i'm just done w/ guys for now. it's not worth bein upset over anymore.
people, in general, can NOT be trusted. pretty sure that Marie is the only person i trust completely anymore.
i don't even trust my own sister.....i KNOW she's lying to me about things. and the fact that she doesn't even defend me when her friends all call me a bitch and other sweet little names. well, lets just say that doesn't feel so good.
and it feels like there's something between me and my "best friend" now...because of something stupid that happened the other night at a show/concert. well, not even happened, just a situation. now every time i talk to her it feels like there's this huge gap in-between us. i'm walking on egg shells and they're about to crack.
things with my dad, as usual, are off and on. one day we're great, and he couldn't be happier. the next day he's ready to kick me out of the house and cut me off completely. ya never know with that man...too much stress for someone his height. haha
♥