Why do I even try
I talked to my girlfriend today. Again, she is in the "don't care mood". I gave her the dates that I said I was comming down to New Paltz and she basically *whatever*, that is if I can even go down. She does not seem to want me to come. I can understand that there might be a field trip, but they have not even decided on a date. She does not understand that I want to come down so badly. She says we can chat on the internet or phone, but I barely her anymore on the net and she does not like it when I call (as she finds the phone annoying). I miss her a lot.
If the timing for going down sucks, I can always have my vacation later.
She tells me that she finds it a bit depressing that only a guy like me would be interested in her. I know I am not the best of people. I may be overweight, but I am loosing weight. I may be ill, but I am doing all I can to get healthier. I am loosing my hair, but who needs hair in the first place. What I am is a good person. I will not raise my voice to her and I will not hit her. I am not the guy who goes around sleeping with women and then dumping them like trash. I try to treat her like a queen and with respect at all times, even if I have some some kinky ideas at time.
I give her all I have and sometimes more than I can. I wish she could see that I am doing my best. It hurts to be told that she does not care. It hurts to be told it is depressing that all she managed to get is someone like me. I wished she was proud of me.
I bought some stuff for her. I am wondering should I send it or should I bring it. I certainly cannot return it.
I wish she called me or at least let me know she still loves me. I wish I felt like I was someone special.
If the timing for going down sucks, I can always have my vacation later.
She tells me that she finds it a bit depressing that only a guy like me would be interested in her. I know I am not the best of people. I may be overweight, but I am loosing weight. I may be ill, but I am doing all I can to get healthier. I am loosing my hair, but who needs hair in the first place. What I am is a good person. I will not raise my voice to her and I will not hit her. I am not the guy who goes around sleeping with women and then dumping them like trash. I try to treat her like a queen and with respect at all times, even if I have some some kinky ideas at time.
I give her all I have and sometimes more than I can. I wish she could see that I am doing my best. It hurts to be told that she does not care. It hurts to be told it is depressing that all she managed to get is someone like me. I wished she was proud of me.
I bought some stuff for her. I am wondering should I send it or should I bring it. I certainly cannot return it.
I wish she called me or at least let me know she still loves me. I wish I felt like I was someone special.