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So itz been a long time...
Brian and I broke up on February 28 2009...we remain friends, but itz hard for me. Im still trying to be social again. I was just so miserable all the time. Itz not that I dont love him, becuz I love him so fucking much...we just had problems. He wanted to have kids and I dont, I mean thats a huge thing. Thats one reason I think Joe and me didnt fit well. Yeah sure another one I love I loose becuz I dont want children. I hate this shit. I mean there were other reasons too, but Idk. I just hate this shit so much. I also cant stand that Im such a jealous person, I dont really show it, itz always bottled up and eats away at me...everytime he goes out thats all I think about is him and another chick. Cant stand that feeling. Idk, I just dont. He keeps trying to have sex with me and I wont, deep down I want to, but I wont. I was suppose to move in with Sarah April 1st but I doubt that. For one Ive been thinking too much about it and I know Im krazy and shouldnt live with n e one, another I think she wants John to move in too and Im not having that. So I asked Brian last nite if I would be able to stay another month until I found an apartment and he said he doesnt mind. Max is doing horrible. I feel so bad for him. Hes gonna die n e day now, maybe even today. I swear it seems like he started doing bad once B and me broke up...I hope it wasnt my fault. Poor booboo. Theres alot more but I dont want to get into it right now, Im at work. So Ill write possibly later.
eh, life sucks.
Brian and I broke up on February 28 2009...we remain friends, but itz hard for me. Im still trying to be social again. I was just so miserable all the time. Itz not that I dont love him, becuz I love him so fucking much...we just had problems. He wanted to have kids and I dont, I mean thats a huge thing. Thats one reason I think Joe and me didnt fit well. Yeah sure another one I love I loose becuz I dont want children. I hate this shit. I mean there were other reasons too, but Idk. I just hate this shit so much. I also cant stand that Im such a jealous person, I dont really show it, itz always bottled up and eats away at me...everytime he goes out thats all I think about is him and another chick. Cant stand that feeling. Idk, I just dont. He keeps trying to have sex with me and I wont, deep down I want to, but I wont. I was suppose to move in with Sarah April 1st but I doubt that. For one Ive been thinking too much about it and I know Im krazy and shouldnt live with n e one, another I think she wants John to move in too and Im not having that. So I asked Brian last nite if I would be able to stay another month until I found an apartment and he said he doesnt mind. Max is doing horrible. I feel so bad for him. Hes gonna die n e day now, maybe even today. I swear it seems like he started doing bad once B and me broke up...I hope it wasnt my fault. Poor booboo. Theres alot more but I dont want to get into it right now, Im at work. So Ill write possibly later.
eh, life sucks.