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yep long time since i updated...
just in an absolute awful mood...just really down i guess thats the only time i write in lj n e way
i did awful on midterms...failed math nd got a 70 on US...things were so much easier wen i was smarter i guess. really i dont kno wuts happening to me i just feel like im struggling all the time ya kno? like ive always worked really hard for my grades nd now in the most important year of my life im juust getting really tired...its like im running in the end of a race nd ur barely able to finish nd uu cann see the finish line but uu dont kno if uu can make it...its an aweful feeling...really the first 2 years of high school mean shit...who cares if i had 95 final averages? its the junior year that matters nd im doing like shit
so im gunna put my 2 weeks in for my job cuz i just cant pull it off
the friends issue is a whole other issue...yea ones a BITCH ND IF I WASNT SUCH A FUCKIN PUSSY I WUD WRITE UR NAME ALL OVER THIS THING BUT HEY IM BETTER THAN THAT! i just fuckin HATE her rite now...GRRRRHFKJHESFLKW
i guess im just a drifter...im friends with all the friends ive always been friends with but uu just grow apart...its so depressing i miss everyone but i feel like i have no time to do n e thing the years i was looking forward to my whole life totally suck
maybe i need italy...i just need to get the fuck away from here, from school, from family, from everything...the fact that one of my supposed best friends is pissed at me for going to italy on her bbirthday doesnt make n e thing easier...maybe im crazy but if i had a friend that was going to italy whose wanted to go for like EVER! i wud b like hey i wish uu cud b here for my birthday but have fun ill miss uu...so FUCK OFF jesus christ ppl r selfish REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY SELFISH dont make me feel guilty about doing something i want to do...nd its funni how she singles me out out of all the friends that are going JUST FUCK THATIS ALL I GATTA SAY
i just feel really really alone....i just feel like i cant talk to n e one about n e thing my problems seem so stupid wen i say them outloud but in my head...they just can ruin my day cuz they tear me apart...just a bad day...ill b ok
just in an absolute awful mood...just really down i guess thats the only time i write in lj n e way
i did awful on midterms...failed math nd got a 70 on US...things were so much easier wen i was smarter i guess. really i dont kno wuts happening to me i just feel like im struggling all the time ya kno? like ive always worked really hard for my grades nd now in the most important year of my life im juust getting really tired...its like im running in the end of a race nd ur barely able to finish nd uu cann see the finish line but uu dont kno if uu can make it...its an aweful feeling...really the first 2 years of high school mean shit...who cares if i had 95 final averages? its the junior year that matters nd im doing like shit
so im gunna put my 2 weeks in for my job cuz i just cant pull it off
the friends issue is a whole other issue...yea ones a BITCH ND IF I WASNT SUCH A FUCKIN PUSSY I WUD WRITE UR NAME ALL OVER THIS THING BUT HEY IM BETTER THAN THAT! i just fuckin HATE her rite now...GRRRRHFKJHESFLKW
i guess im just a drifter...im friends with all the friends ive always been friends with but uu just grow apart...its so depressing i miss everyone but i feel like i have no time to do n e thing the years i was looking forward to my whole life totally suck
maybe i need italy...i just need to get the fuck away from here, from school, from family, from everything...the fact that one of my supposed best friends is pissed at me for going to italy on her bbirthday doesnt make n e thing easier...maybe im crazy but if i had a friend that was going to italy whose wanted to go for like EVER! i wud b like hey i wish uu cud b here for my birthday but have fun ill miss uu...so FUCK OFF jesus christ ppl r selfish REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY SELFISH dont make me feel guilty about doing something i want to do...nd its funni how she singles me out out of all the friends that are going JUST FUCK THATIS ALL I GATTA SAY
i just feel really really alone....i just feel like i cant talk to n e one about n e thing my problems seem so stupid wen i say them outloud but in my head...they just can ruin my day cuz they tear me apart...just a bad day...ill b ok