the week from hell
so this week was fucking awkward. monday and tuesday i was suspended and yet it still felt like the longest week ive had in a while. so the dean at school let me stay there cus i have good grades or whatever so yeah but he said one more fuck up and back to van nuys i go. so i got to school on wednesday and all these fucking people were like "i heard this and this and that" and all this crap so i told my fucking story about 100 fucking times. it's so fucking awkward between me and ashley its horrid. but whatever i dont care too much for that anymore. ummm so atleast some good came out of this, well no not really however i do talk to melissa more now since shes the only one i count on that wont fucking back stab me. so yeah and then owen comes up to me on thursday and was all like "oh man i heard that blah blah blah and that you fucking started crying or someshit" and he like put his arm around me like trying to comfort me and im like "what the fuck are you doing man dont hug me youre making me feel gay" ahahah but it was funny owen trying to be sensitive so i told him what happened and shit and he said that ashley told him i cried over her, which by the way if you read this ashley i didnt fucking cry over you, youre way too full of yourself. the reason i cried is because ive been feeling kinda depressed lately and i dont know why, i think just all the pressure got to me that day and the fucking alcohol in my head fucked me up, i hate crying, crying's fucking stupid specially infront of fucking everyone i cant belive i fucking did that, fucking drunk ass. but yeah im over this whole thing for the most part its just fucking awkward at school and shit, specially since everyone kinda seems to crowd around ashley and i just really dont want to be there so yeah. on a lighter note, i found this pretty funny, theres this asian chick in my class shes pretty fuckin hot, shes my age, and so i stareted talking to her yesterday and she started talking about how she had to go to church before school everyday and i was like "youre mormon?" and shes like "yeah" and so we had a long ass conversation about all the shit that the church does and how theyre all uptight and shit, in the church people arent supposed to drink or smoke or much of anything for that matter, and i told her how i smoke bud and cigs and drink, shes like "i wouldve never thought you were mormon" im like "yep, but i dont go anymore" and she was all shocked then i was like "im gonna go to seminary one day and find you" shes like "yeah then you can take me out of the class and we can have sex in the bathroom to see what theyll say when they catch us" im like "yeah we should, ill go one day" it was funny shit, i wanna take her up on that offer, that shit's gotta be blasphemus, fucking in a church ahahaha thats fuckin funny. man i need to get myself a fuck buddy that would be nice. oo man, one of the highlights of this week was when jerkel (this one scrawny dorky ass jewish freshman) started crying because some dudes started doing the fucking nazi salute at him and started saying how hitler did a good thing in the holocaust, ahahahah it was so fucking funny the kid was all crying like really pissed off saying how his family died in the holocaust i found it pretty fucking amusing ahaha so yeah oo and i got my fucking computer cable back, my mom had taken that shit away and hid it. im going to the fucking show tonight im gonna go take some pictures for my photo class and yeah that should be fun. -ed