what a fucking horrible day
so today me, anselem, anthony oi, and ashley went to rhiannons house to drink. we drank. i drank excessively. we were laughing and fuckin around and shit and it was all fine and shit. then i dunno wtf happened but i remember talking to rhiannon one moment then the next we were all outiside in handcuffs and like 4 fucking cops asking questions. i was like what the hell happened? i didnt have a fucking shirt on, there was puke all over my fucking pants and my hands were hurting like crap from the handcuffs. i started getting loud w/ the cops i told them fuck the cops, fuck the government all like all this shit the cops tell me to settle down and theyre like watch youre language and shit so now its illegal to say "fuck"?? i hate cops. so then i puked my fucking brains out. they took us to school. i talked to the deans i started crying like some drunk ass depressed shit. thats embarrasing so then i call my uncle and i told him what happened.called my mom. i got a fucking like 250 dollar fine. some friends saw me mr nechak saw me and he was all like what happened eduardo? and he said he was gonna do all he could for me. so everyone hates me i think, cus its my fault apparently. my moms dissapointed she dindnt even want to talk to me or see me. she threw away my studded leather jacket and my skintights and all. and so my life is shit im turning into my fucking druggie drunk ass dad, the thing i hate most, fucking scum, the crap that just sits there in between the tiles in the bathroom. i fucking hate myself. everyones fucking dissapointed and shit thats the worst. and to make matters worst ashley wouldnt even talk to me that makes me feel even more like shit. umm yeah i think im getting kicked out of cleveland cus i had already gotten kicked out of van nuys for stupid shit and theyre taking my senior privilages away, no prom, no graduation on stage, no fucking anything that i already payed for, no money back. i need to fucking grow up, this was a fucking slap from reality. i need to leave all this shit, im too fucking old to still be doing stupid shit like this. and so yeah bad times.