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Maybe I Should Kill Myself (an Elena Gilbert 4x06 meta)

Nov 16, 2012 16:24

So, remember how I just had an Elena appreciation week and vomited tons of feelings? Yeah. I'm just gonna keep doing that. Only without gifs this time (by all means, feel free to gifspam me), because I can't be fucked to spend five hours sorting through all the screams and flail on my tumblr dash. I WILL DO IT AFTER MY BRAIN STOPS SCREAMING. Which ( Read more... )

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magisterequitum November 16 2012, 16:33:34 UTC

This episode was just absolutely perfect in terms of her taking on her worst fears in her mind, that she's allowed to fester and carried around as a weight on her shoulder. That she shouldn't have to. That she doesn't need. But she does anyway because a large part of her hates herself. OUR WONDERFUL ELENA GILBERT. And like she throws that way at the end.

And Damon jumps in with her.

I just cannottttttt.

upupa_epops November 16 2012, 16:50:50 UTC

I AM STILL NOT OVER THIS EPISODE. Elena's EVERYTHING gets acknowledged. I can't.

petitebelette November 16 2012, 16:41:05 UTC

You'll find nothing but rainbow vomit and a verbose overanalysis of a teen vampire show here.
I'M EXCITED

Elena's journey into the heart of darkness (=into the self) begins with repeating the most horrid (from her perspective) thing Damon has ever done to her, and ends with jumping off the Wickery Bridge TOGETHER WITH DAMON. After the hallucinations have stopped and Elena's painful crawl through her guilt and self-loathing is over, there is still her deepest fear to confront. And they both literally jump into this fear, because that's the only way she can survive. Because D/E is not, in its core, about the relationship between Elena and Damon, it's about how Elena and Damon hold up mirrors to each other and force each other to look into those mirrors. It's about being forced to look at this version of the self that is covered in brother's blood. About embracing each other and jumping into the greatest horror together. About being there when the other person says “I don't deserve to live”. About crawling out of those moments of self- ( ... )

upupa_epops November 16 2012, 16:52:38 UTC

DUH, you're a tag here. I'm reading your tumblr tags now, and all I'm thinking is: "I SHOULD'VE MADE MORE TAGS!" :(((((.

VOMIT.

petitebelette November 16 2012, 16:58:30 UTC

No, you're beautiful.

lkasjf ALL THE VOMIT

upupa_epops November 16 2012, 16:59:52 UTC

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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hotarujazz November 16 2012, 17:41:04 UTC

Elena Gilbert finally realizing that you have to live for yourself first so that you can keep everyone else alive! I still have no words.....

upupa_epops November 16 2012, 22:25:06 UTC

Let's hope this is how it's gonna be from now on <3333333333

eowyn_315 November 16 2012, 20:18:38 UTC

I loved how the plot was utilized to explore the character here. It would be ridiculous to have Elena go through something so horrid over a “normal” kill (it would just be an unbearable “Elena is infinite goodness” show, and I DID NOT WANT THAT), and it would be tedious if she just went mad for a “supernatural” reason that made her not be “herself”. But this? SPOT-ON! The hunter curse pulled Elena's deepest, darkest fears right out of her brain and LET THEM LOOSE.

YES YES YES YES YES. I was actually slightly worried when I saw the promos for this episode, because I didn't want Elena angsting unnecessarily (and thus fueling the "St. Elena" criticisms) but it ended up being SO FUCKING PERFECT I CANNOT STAND IT.

We've been talking so long about how Elena is like Damon... and this scene just captured the crux of a D/E parallel in the most perfect, subtle way.

Heh, and when Damon said the thing about "I think you killing your brother trumps Stefan compelling him," I was like SAYS THE GUY WHO HAS DONE BOTH. MULTIPLE TIMES.

I love how ( ... )

upupa_epops November 16 2012, 22:31:16 UTC

I wasn't really worried? Elena's been dropping suicide hints for a few eps now, so there's been build-up.

SAYS THE GUY WHO HAS DONE BOTH. MULTIPLE TIMES.

Well, don't be harsh, he only killed him once ;).

I'm a bit afraid where it will go from here, but this acknowledgement of the self seemed like a logical conclusion of the 4x01-4x06 arc? CAN'T WAIT TO SEE THE NEXT EP.

OUR BABY GIRL IS ALL GROWN UP.

IKR? SOBBING

angearia November 16 2012, 20:48:07 UTC

THIS IS SO PERFECT. I bow before your Elena Gilbert meta. *obeisance*

upupa_epops November 16 2012, 22:32:09 UTC

You're making me blush, and that's not pretty!