discontent

[upgradedfetus]

i miss the past. i hate the future and present, and miss the past. i miss watching my parents play spades with their friends and getting to join in when one of the spouses got tired. i miss being in that black&white kitchen with every possible nook and cranny decorated with cows. if i'm friends with a couple and then they break up, i swear it totally fucks up my world.

the situation described above happened somewhere around the time i was 10-12. over a decade later and i still miss it; i'm fucking psycho.