this is scary....

[upbeforethesun]

It's kinda intimidating to update this because there has been a lot of time that has been missed. What to say? Well for anyone who actually reads this probobly know that I moved to Indiana, sometimes I think that is the same as I went crazy. I would never consciously and desire to up and leave to Indiana, even if I didn't love Philli or anything. So I am here in the middle of cornfields going through some real life crap. But overall, I wouldn't change anything. I am loving where I am at and loving the mystery of life right now. If I can put my humanness aside and let go of my fear, worries, and need for understanding what the heck is going on, I think I could just really enjoy these cornfields. But those are tough things to learn to push aside.

"life can be so hard even if you think you’re strong
you can get knocked down in so many different ways
yeah i know the path is narrow
but it’s mighty long
and it’s not safe
not safe
everything’s going to be alright "
Lori Chaffer