I hope it doesn't go away....

[upbeforethesun]

It's been awile....
I really think im failing at this LJ thing.
My heart just isn't into it.
It hasn't been in a while.
One of my friends told me it was a cult.
I got scared.
Was I really brainwashed?
I mean...
Am I really brainwashed?
I'm wondering If I should get out now.
Before it's too late.
Help.

I hope it doesn't go away...
So I have been given this amazing gift...
but lots of parts in me want to fight it...
I'm scared.
But, Grace is so amazing and redeeming.
I think I will choose that.

"Freely you have received, freely give."