I'm so done with 2007
Kira died today it really sucks. I miss her already and its only been a few hours. Its weird being in my house without her around. There were times when shed be gone for a few hours or even a day and it would feel weird but knowing she won't be back ever is just too much. She was a huge part of half of my life and without her it just feels empty. When I sit on the couch I instinctively hold out my hand waiting for her to come up and nuzzle it. Her food bowl is half empty from when I tried to get her to eat last night and she ate a little but left the rest. I don't have the heart to empty it. Her toys are scattered about our living room and her fur covers the floor but no one has made a move to clean them up or vacuum. I don't know how I will be able to come home and not have her waiting anxiously at the door for dinner anytime before she has eaten.
She just got sick so suddenly but she was getting better. I slept next to her last night and she seemed to be getting better and the vet said so too, but when we took her back so he could continue treatment she just didn't make it. Laying there last night part of me knew she wasn't going to make it the way she looked at us or wouldn't look at us. Its almost as if she seemed betrayed and didn't want to make eye contact. I think she knew she wasn't going to make it and didn't want us to know.
We were all excited when Ryan's mom came over to see her and she jumped up right away to pick up a toy and greet her at the door. We all thought that was a good sign that she was feeling better.
I guess all I can really say is that I'm just glad I was home to be with her for her last weeks instead of off at another college where I couldn't see her.
Home just doesn't feel like home anymore.
She just got sick so suddenly but she was getting better. I slept next to her last night and she seemed to be getting better and the vet said so too, but when we took her back so he could continue treatment she just didn't make it. Laying there last night part of me knew she wasn't going to make it the way she looked at us or wouldn't look at us. Its almost as if she seemed betrayed and didn't want to make eye contact. I think she knew she wasn't going to make it and didn't want us to know.
We were all excited when Ryan's mom came over to see her and she jumped up right away to pick up a toy and greet her at the door. We all thought that was a good sign that she was feeling better.
I guess all I can really say is that I'm just glad I was home to be with her for her last weeks instead of off at another college where I couldn't see her.
Home just doesn't feel like home anymore.