if you aren't any of those things, then you don't belong on this planet.
do you ever feel like your exterior doesn't match your soul? please say yes.
that is how i'm feeling today and every day. my soul is hollywood, la attraction, party funky, euro punk, bohemian chic, 3 o' clock AM. my exterior is useless, boreddayindayout, meaningless, gloomy, introverted, plain oatmeal. i'm constantly battling myself in a lose-lose situation.
I have recently moved to a different state. i thought that i would put my past personality behind me and start off fresh and exciting. i thought i would be outgoing and fun. i figured i could be care-free and extroverted. with each day that goes by, i realise i am transitioning into that same person i used to be. i'm going back into my turtle shell and becoming nothing. when i meet people, i never click with them. i used to think that was because those particular people weren't the right people for me. i soon discovered that if every social encounter results in the same situation...then it must be me.
i tried to adopt a new style and talk with more liveliness but nothing works. it is my face, it is my exterior that people are turned off by. i look boring and i nothing ever happens to me so i never have anything to talk about. in this world you must be either : FUNNY, RICH, BEAUTIFUL OR SMART. if you aren't any of those things, then you don't belong on this planet.
this blog is my first blog and it is stupid. i am not editing posts like i used to or going into dictionary.com to use the thesaurus thus making my words more fancy. fuck that. this is how my brain is and i cannot help it.
that is how i'm feeling today and every day. my soul is hollywood, la attraction, party funky, euro punk, bohemian chic, 3 o' clock AM. my exterior is useless, boreddayindayout, meaningless, gloomy, introverted, plain oatmeal. i'm constantly battling myself in a lose-lose situation.
I have recently moved to a different state. i thought that i would put my past personality behind me and start off fresh and exciting. i thought i would be outgoing and fun. i figured i could be care-free and extroverted. with each day that goes by, i realise i am transitioning into that same person i used to be. i'm going back into my turtle shell and becoming nothing. when i meet people, i never click with them. i used to think that was because those particular people weren't the right people for me. i soon discovered that if every social encounter results in the same situation...then it must be me.
i tried to adopt a new style and talk with more liveliness but nothing works. it is my face, it is my exterior that people are turned off by. i look boring and i nothing ever happens to me so i never have anything to talk about. in this world you must be either : FUNNY, RICH, BEAUTIFUL OR SMART. if you aren't any of those things, then you don't belong on this planet.
this blog is my first blog and it is stupid. i am not editing posts like i used to or going into dictionary.com to use the thesaurus thus making my words more fancy. fuck that. this is how my brain is and i cannot help it.