Eternal thinking
So..yeah, finally signed up for school and am starting in like 2 weeks....but it's only night school...one night a week, and then I can be accepted into the program that I want. So I guess that is a really good thing...but I wish I could just do some of the things I am passionate about for the rest of my life. Making cards, taking pictures, and drawing....and just loving others! Too bad that didn't make a living! I met with someone today and am so excited for what's too come, and for what opportunities are available! I am finally getting my life together by myself, without relying on anyone other than God. I am starting a new way of thinking. I am branching out on my own, and am not at all going to be concerned with others. I have realized I am on my own and I need to become okay with that. I need to find what God wants from me and to grow me into what He wants...not what I want. I need to not care that if all my friends are dating, engaged or married and they want to shaft me and not hang out with me because I am single....then they are really not good friends anyhow, and am better off without them. I have no problems hanging out with them....so if they do....ain't my problem!!!! I want eternal things!!! I need to become completely dependant on Him and work on being the one He has called me to. I am going to start living for myself. No more for others and what I think others want me to do. At this point I really can't lose much more, so I am going to give it ALL to Him and pursue Glory!!! I feel like I have been given a clean slate and WANT to start completely over. I have righted some of the relatioships that were not good, and have been broken, and asked those people to just start over and forget about the past, and am starting to do those things I am passionate about. I want to be a well rounded person and feel I am on my way to that. I haven't really worked out or eaten healthy for the last couple weeks as I had not been doing all that well...but I have really felt the change from that and I definetly don't feel as good. So as soon as my foot is healed I am hoping to get back to the gym, and there comes motivation to again eat healthy!!!! Well yeah, I am going to camp next week with clients and I am SO excited about that. I am hoping to once again be humbled and grow a lot and am already in my heart preparing to be changed and grown. I really believe that my clients can teach my a lot and ...yeah they are SO wonderful!!!