Finally!!!
So...yeah, I got a tattoo tonight. I have wanted one since high school...and I finally did it. I got a trinity symbol...a little bit modified! It's actually from the CD cover of a Christian band named Plumb. I have loved the way it looked since I first saw it, and I wanted a tattoo of something that had some meaning to me.... Anyhow, I got it on my foot and it is green and I love it, even though it hurt friggin bad!!!!! I am already planning for another one ...in Hebrew on my lower back...but I will wait a while!!!!
So anyhow, things have been ok. The dosage was upped, not so sure how I feel about that. Certain things have still been difficult, but I am TRYING to perservere. I have had a lot of encouraging words over the last couple of weeks from others and I feel that God is totally trying to show me that I am loved....as a lot of the time I don't feel it. I have friends that I just wish I could hug sometimes...but they may get mad....or tell them I love them...but feel I can't. So, as an expressive person this is EXTREMELY hard for me..so I guess to hear it, or feel it a little lately has been nice! I am hoping and praying for things to get better and to sort of sort themselves out. I really have seen God working in my life in different ways lately....and actually just now as I was writing that I thought that maybe I should write them down, in a journal or something...b/c then maybe when I get down or don't feel God, I will remember that He IS there, I just need to ask Him to be. I think maybe that would be encouraging for me...so I can 't always just feel like He is not there.....cause He is, you just don't always see it when you aren't doing the best! Thanks
So anyhow, things have been ok. The dosage was upped, not so sure how I feel about that. Certain things have still been difficult, but I am TRYING to perservere. I have had a lot of encouraging words over the last couple of weeks from others and I feel that God is totally trying to show me that I am loved....as a lot of the time I don't feel it. I have friends that I just wish I could hug sometimes...but they may get mad....or tell them I love them...but feel I can't. So, as an expressive person this is EXTREMELY hard for me..so I guess to hear it, or feel it a little lately has been nice! I am hoping and praying for things to get better and to sort of sort themselves out. I really have seen God working in my life in different ways lately....and actually just now as I was writing that I thought that maybe I should write them down, in a journal or something...b/c then maybe when I get down or don't feel God, I will remember that He IS there, I just need to ask Him to be. I think maybe that would be encouraging for me...so I can 't always just feel like He is not there.....cause He is, you just don't always see it when you aren't doing the best! Thanks