What do i really WANT anymore
actually i dont quite know how to answer that.
Everything's in a blur around me right now: it's all going wrong. My parents are most likely going to split up after Christmas, which again throws into the mix that whole argument from last year about where I'm gonna go to school.
I swear to God if that starts up again I think it may just break me.
And then i'm starting to give up on searchin for someone that likes me. I just keep gettin kicked in the face. That's what I get for being so insecure. I just dont know what to do anymore. Like, I talked to him today and it was just kinda weird: he wasnt saying much, and i kept thinkin to myself "maybe thats just the way this goes: he prolly DOESNT like me, and he really doesnt have any reason TO." It doesnt help that someone sent JOHN a candy cane from "me" confessing my love or somethin like that. if he thinks I still like John then that might be the cause of some of this. Who knows
Sorry, wow, that paragraph is a LOT longer than I would've liked it to be.
Anyways my mom needs my help upstairs but i'll prolly write later considering I dont really have a life.
<3
Everything's in a blur around me right now: it's all going wrong. My parents are most likely going to split up after Christmas, which again throws into the mix that whole argument from last year about where I'm gonna go to school.
I swear to God if that starts up again I think it may just break me.
And then i'm starting to give up on searchin for someone that likes me. I just keep gettin kicked in the face. That's what I get for being so insecure. I just dont know what to do anymore. Like, I talked to him today and it was just kinda weird: he wasnt saying much, and i kept thinkin to myself "maybe thats just the way this goes: he prolly DOESNT like me, and he really doesnt have any reason TO." It doesnt help that someone sent JOHN a candy cane from "me" confessing my love or somethin like that. if he thinks I still like John then that might be the cause of some of this. Who knows
Sorry, wow, that paragraph is a LOT longer than I would've liked it to be.
Anyways my mom needs my help upstairs but i'll prolly write later considering I dont really have a life.
<3