version 3.0.0
Oh, where to begin? Beginning again is a good place to begin.
Things have changed. Parts of me changed a long time ago, so this newfound change was coming, but it took longer than it really should have.
After two years, I am single again. The reasons behind it are too numerous to name. In the future, it will really not be worth talking about, so I will lay it out in a nice package so everyone can understand the bare essentials without me having to go in to details.
About a year ago (give or take a few months), I was cheated on. It happened more than once. I tried hard in my heart to work through things and make them work. No matter what I tried to think and no matter what he tried to fix what he broke, it was never enough. My trust and heart had been broken and it was just not able to be repaired. Even after messing up once and then twice, he messed up a third time and things went downhill from there.
The only reason I believe it lasted as long as it did is because we shared so much of life together that it would inevitably be very difficult splitting our commonalities.
But, it's over and I am moving on. Normally, it would be a harder process than it is. However, I can unfortunately say that I moved on a long time ago.
The thing I'm bothered about the most is that I really think he believes he did nothing wrong. I know he goes behind my back and trashes my name, saying that I was the one who did him wrong and that hurts a little. But, I guess he can do what he wants and we will both know in our hearts what happened to cause this complicated disaster.
I guess I don't mind being hated by people. Especially when the people who will think badly of me are either people I do not know, people I have no respect for, or fat cows that I have great disdain for anyway. And just to close all issues, to the Queen of the Fat Cows: you're right. I don't like you and it's because of your own actions. You lied about me, said negative things about me and so no, I have no respect for you and I have no concern whether you are dead or alive. You're scummy and have to turn to freak shows for love since no one else will love you. Have fun with that one. And good riddance.
Now, to the future. There is no hatred stemming from the break-up. It was amicable and I have nothing against him as a person. That being said, we are going to attempt being friends and roommates. I feel like this is an okay option because it's easier for both of us. No matter what the outcome, I know that I am not leaving this house. This is my home and I love this house. It's perfect for me... great location and just a nice place to live. I'm comfortable here and he knows I will not be leaving.
I can't speak for him, but for me, I don't feel awkward at all. It's just another step in life for me. I've been through enough, so this is just something else to pass through.
I don't think much is going to change for me personally. I work a lot, so my life was fairly non-existant. I am going to try and become more sociable. I am going to attempt to start playing poker again. It was a near-daily thing I used to do that I no longer do anymore.
I am also going to attempt to post more in my journal. All my posts are jumbles of thoughts, but even that is ok.
More to come at a later date. Hope all is well in your lands.
Things have changed. Parts of me changed a long time ago, so this newfound change was coming, but it took longer than it really should have.
After two years, I am single again. The reasons behind it are too numerous to name. In the future, it will really not be worth talking about, so I will lay it out in a nice package so everyone can understand the bare essentials without me having to go in to details.
About a year ago (give or take a few months), I was cheated on. It happened more than once. I tried hard in my heart to work through things and make them work. No matter what I tried to think and no matter what he tried to fix what he broke, it was never enough. My trust and heart had been broken and it was just not able to be repaired. Even after messing up once and then twice, he messed up a third time and things went downhill from there.
The only reason I believe it lasted as long as it did is because we shared so much of life together that it would inevitably be very difficult splitting our commonalities.
But, it's over and I am moving on. Normally, it would be a harder process than it is. However, I can unfortunately say that I moved on a long time ago.
The thing I'm bothered about the most is that I really think he believes he did nothing wrong. I know he goes behind my back and trashes my name, saying that I was the one who did him wrong and that hurts a little. But, I guess he can do what he wants and we will both know in our hearts what happened to cause this complicated disaster.
I guess I don't mind being hated by people. Especially when the people who will think badly of me are either people I do not know, people I have no respect for, or fat cows that I have great disdain for anyway. And just to close all issues, to the Queen of the Fat Cows: you're right. I don't like you and it's because of your own actions. You lied about me, said negative things about me and so no, I have no respect for you and I have no concern whether you are dead or alive. You're scummy and have to turn to freak shows for love since no one else will love you. Have fun with that one. And good riddance.
Now, to the future. There is no hatred stemming from the break-up. It was amicable and I have nothing against him as a person. That being said, we are going to attempt being friends and roommates. I feel like this is an okay option because it's easier for both of us. No matter what the outcome, I know that I am not leaving this house. This is my home and I love this house. It's perfect for me... great location and just a nice place to live. I'm comfortable here and he knows I will not be leaving.
I can't speak for him, but for me, I don't feel awkward at all. It's just another step in life for me. I've been through enough, so this is just something else to pass through.
I don't think much is going to change for me personally. I work a lot, so my life was fairly non-existant. I am going to try and become more sociable. I am going to attempt to start playing poker again. It was a near-daily thing I used to do that I no longer do anymore.
I am also going to attempt to post more in my journal. All my posts are jumbles of thoughts, but even that is ok.
More to come at a later date. Hope all is well in your lands.