Rantings of a frustrated twenty something
I have actually come to that point in my life where I can be classified as a Twenty-Something. High school days are behind me, in less than two months, my college days will be behind me and I am terrified of all the changes that will be coming into my life. Mind you, some will be welcome. For example, the cash flow I will have once I actually find a job, or perhaps getting a kickass apartment with Linzi at a trendy loft apartment complex downtown. Then there is always the tall, long brown haired, guitar playing, hockey player that gets all my quirks, and is not a boyfriend or former boyfriend of one of my good friends, that will come into my life. It's okay to imagine a guy like that is out there right? As long as I remain grounded and know that, of course, he is not.
All that sounds great, right? Therefore, what scares me so much? Well there are changes that I already see happening that I extremely dislike. A.) I think it has probably been a good month since I have seen the wonderful D'lyn Byers. I hate that. There was a time when I would see her at least 3 times a week if not more. Also, I barely see or talk to Linz anymore. Mind you, I talk to her more than I do my other friends, but for two years she was a steady rock in my life always there to calm me down when I start to freak out about stupid stuff. Next, B.) I have no idea what I want to do with my life. A Journalism Degree from OU is great, but for me it is just not enough. I know I want to continue my education, but where? When? And in what field? Then, I desperately want to move away. I wish I knew for sure that I had enough courage to do it on my own. Moving to a new city, all alone, terrifies me, as it should. What alarms me even more though is the fact that I may be too weak to actually follow through with it on my own.
Okay, I'm not sure where else to go with this Journal. I'm positive there are about a million more things I could say, but right now, it's just not the time.
All that sounds great, right? Therefore, what scares me so much? Well there are changes that I already see happening that I extremely dislike. A.) I think it has probably been a good month since I have seen the wonderful D'lyn Byers. I hate that. There was a time when I would see her at least 3 times a week if not more. Also, I barely see or talk to Linz anymore. Mind you, I talk to her more than I do my other friends, but for two years she was a steady rock in my life always there to calm me down when I start to freak out about stupid stuff. Next, B.) I have no idea what I want to do with my life. A Journalism Degree from OU is great, but for me it is just not enough. I know I want to continue my education, but where? When? And in what field? Then, I desperately want to move away. I wish I knew for sure that I had enough courage to do it on my own. Moving to a new city, all alone, terrifies me, as it should. What alarms me even more though is the fact that I may be too weak to actually follow through with it on my own.
Okay, I'm not sure where else to go with this Journal. I'm positive there are about a million more things I could say, but right now, it's just not the time.