Tonight, I felt closer
My Love,
I know you will not see this. Tonight, I felt closer to you than ever before. This is my reflection after it.
We had driven to Pennsylvania, back through West Virginia, and then back to Pennsylvania to see your mother and pick up your kids.
We arrived one night early so that we could spend some time with your mom. As we got to Pennsylvania, night had already fallen. I had no idea where we were. You drove down a gravel path that I knew was not the road to your mom's condo. Then, you stopped the car and got out.
You opened the trunk of my car and got a Coke Zero from the back seat. Then you came, opened my door, and got the flashlight from the glove compartment. As you shined the Light, I realized we were at the Cemetery.
We walked to your sisters headstone and your father's ashes, and I took a deep breath and held you tight. This was the first time you had ever let me into somewhere so raw in your heart. You opened the soda with one hand as you hold my hand with the other.
" we are here..." you say speaking to the souls surrounding you. " I know you'll never be able to meet her, and I wish you could, but this is as close as we will get. I can never pry these things out of her hand, so I figured I'd share one with you." You take a deep breath, and gently pour some of the soda onto the ground."I miss you... both of you. I guess that's it." You take a sip and give me the rest. I pour a little more onto the ground, feeling as if it's a part of me I'm leaving there. Still looking at the stone, you add" this is her, I guess all I have to say is I wish you could meet her."He looks to me and asks me if I want to say anything else.
I nod my head and take a deep breath holding him tight. " thanks for sharing him with me. I wish I could have met both of you, but everyone is doing well and taking care of each other. From the stories i hear, his kids are spitting images of you. May your memories continue to be for a blessing."
I hugged him tight as we took a step back. Tonight, my love, you showed me a part of you that will always be raw. While i have sat with your sister's ashes in your mother's home, this was the closest I have ever felt to you. I hope you realize that I will always be here for the good moments, the hard ones, and every single moment in between.
I love you. You and your kids are what makes up my heart.
All My Love
Baby Girl
I know you will not see this. Tonight, I felt closer to you than ever before. This is my reflection after it.
We had driven to Pennsylvania, back through West Virginia, and then back to Pennsylvania to see your mother and pick up your kids.
We arrived one night early so that we could spend some time with your mom. As we got to Pennsylvania, night had already fallen. I had no idea where we were. You drove down a gravel path that I knew was not the road to your mom's condo. Then, you stopped the car and got out.
You opened the trunk of my car and got a Coke Zero from the back seat. Then you came, opened my door, and got the flashlight from the glove compartment. As you shined the Light, I realized we were at the Cemetery.
We walked to your sisters headstone and your father's ashes, and I took a deep breath and held you tight. This was the first time you had ever let me into somewhere so raw in your heart. You opened the soda with one hand as you hold my hand with the other.
" we are here..." you say speaking to the souls surrounding you. " I know you'll never be able to meet her, and I wish you could, but this is as close as we will get. I can never pry these things out of her hand, so I figured I'd share one with you." You take a deep breath, and gently pour some of the soda onto the ground."I miss you... both of you. I guess that's it." You take a sip and give me the rest. I pour a little more onto the ground, feeling as if it's a part of me I'm leaving there. Still looking at the stone, you add" this is her, I guess all I have to say is I wish you could meet her."He looks to me and asks me if I want to say anything else.
I nod my head and take a deep breath holding him tight. " thanks for sharing him with me. I wish I could have met both of you, but everyone is doing well and taking care of each other. From the stories i hear, his kids are spitting images of you. May your memories continue to be for a blessing."
I hugged him tight as we took a step back. Tonight, my love, you showed me a part of you that will always be raw. While i have sat with your sister's ashes in your mother's home, this was the closest I have ever felt to you. I hope you realize that I will always be here for the good moments, the hard ones, and every single moment in between.
I love you. You and your kids are what makes up my heart.
All My Love
Baby Girl