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sitting here in front of the computer screen...wanting to call and talk, to tell you how I feel...
but I can't...It's too late...now my heart is pledged to another.
Do you know? Do you care? These questions and many more rush through my mind and heart as I sit here late at night...
Wanting...wishing...hopeing...dreading...the thought that I could've had...but no...I'm happy now...
Me and him...together...we'll work it out, see how it goes, if it lasts, how it becomes in the days to come...
Twisted heart, torn in two...feelings for another...even as I felt for you...
Talking every night...often one right after the other...whispering things in the dark...Those promises..and thoughts...will they be kept? was I just another whom you wanted to win over and then discard...seems that way now.
I was too busy remembering the good times...discarding all the times you said you'd call and didn't, the times you talked to other girls when you thought I was sleeping beside you...yet my eyes were open and my ears too...not intending to intrude...but the words "i miss you" "i love you" echoing in my brain and soul..
pushing them out so i could be happy, to feel like someone special if only for another brief moment in space and time...when you left you said you would return...would i wait?
i said yes...until i sat back and realized the other was right in front of my face the entire time...should i not give this happiness its chance? should i let it go without exploring further the what ifs and could bes?
i dont think so...i cant.
with him i feel...different than when i was with you...yet so much more in sooo many ways...i think of his touch and of his voice...and i am happy...content...warmed by the thought that he feels the same...dont have to wonder...dont have to hope...or wish...
with him i can be me...not as i want or hope to be...but as i am...just me...
i know that you'll never read this...or possibly even know how i feel...but it helps...it helps me.
i loved you once...deeply and truly...but now i'm saying farewell...
til we meet again one day...maybe...
but I can't...It's too late...now my heart is pledged to another.
Do you know? Do you care? These questions and many more rush through my mind and heart as I sit here late at night...
Wanting...wishing...hopeing...dreading...the thought that I could've had...but no...I'm happy now...
Me and him...together...we'll work it out, see how it goes, if it lasts, how it becomes in the days to come...
Twisted heart, torn in two...feelings for another...even as I felt for you...
Talking every night...often one right after the other...whispering things in the dark...Those promises..and thoughts...will they be kept? was I just another whom you wanted to win over and then discard...seems that way now.
I was too busy remembering the good times...discarding all the times you said you'd call and didn't, the times you talked to other girls when you thought I was sleeping beside you...yet my eyes were open and my ears too...not intending to intrude...but the words "i miss you" "i love you" echoing in my brain and soul..
pushing them out so i could be happy, to feel like someone special if only for another brief moment in space and time...when you left you said you would return...would i wait?
i said yes...until i sat back and realized the other was right in front of my face the entire time...should i not give this happiness its chance? should i let it go without exploring further the what ifs and could bes?
i dont think so...i cant.
with him i feel...different than when i was with you...yet so much more in sooo many ways...i think of his touch and of his voice...and i am happy...content...warmed by the thought that he feels the same...dont have to wonder...dont have to hope...or wish...
with him i can be me...not as i want or hope to be...but as i am...just me...
i know that you'll never read this...or possibly even know how i feel...but it helps...it helps me.
i loved you once...deeply and truly...but now i'm saying farewell...
til we meet again one day...maybe...