Why life why!!
So I'm going through yet another
WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE@@ Phase...
I'm just not enjoying theater/acting any more and can't see the fight that it takes to get any sort of role as worth it when, once I get a role, I don't like the work to character build any more.
So while I'm going to continue trying for the time being (I'm giving my self 6 months to really try) and then I'm going to re-evaluate and see if it's still not juicing my pickle anymore.
Beyond that I'm carefully looking around at things that I might use to replace acting with as a career. Wednesday Rachel and I went to USC and toured the Law School. Sat in on a class (Contract Law) and was intrigued enough to give it some consideration. Contract law isn't exactly riveting but I could keep up with the discussion for the most part and saw the puzzle pieces falling into place as I did. Baring the fact that I'm missing large chunks of knowledge that the L1's there had I felt like I did all right in following along.
My current Career Thoughts
Psychology
Law
Architecture
Speech Pathology
For all these subjects I need to figure out what their options are. Career wise when I think about Lawyers, I think Court room. And for psychologists I think mental health patients. I need to open my understanding of these careers and see the whole picture rather than the small portion that probably stems from tv/movies.
I'm basically just looking into things that I know have been remotely interesting. Psychology is the first and fore most thought because it was the only other thing that I gave consideration to when I was getting into colleges as well as the fact that I always find it incredibly interesting. Not to mention the fact that it was the only subjects outside of the arts that I returned to regularly for my GE's and those extra classes. Talk to mr. Funder. Rachel brought up mediators/councilors.
Law I already mentioned.
Architecture I really love. Looking at buildings inside and out, reading articles about the thoughts behind certain architects buildings and their inspiration definitely turns me on... my actual ability and desire to do it is unknown.
Speech Pathology my cousin does. And I hear that right now school districts are in desperate need.. I would have to look into it.
And that is where nearly ALL my stress for the past two weeks has been coming from. It was good to get together with Rachel and have a massive 3 hour long talk about life and everything that is going on. I've relaxed significantly since Tuesday.
I am particularly scared of this secret..
because some times I worry that I would give up on alot of my dreams/desires/acomplishments if I was in love with/really committed to another person, just because it would be easy. And that wouldn't be right or at all ok to do that to the other person because in that situation I would probably be really depressed/upset and any other negative emotion you could think of.
WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE@@ Phase...
I'm just not enjoying theater/acting any more and can't see the fight that it takes to get any sort of role as worth it when, once I get a role, I don't like the work to character build any more.
So while I'm going to continue trying for the time being (I'm giving my self 6 months to really try) and then I'm going to re-evaluate and see if it's still not juicing my pickle anymore.
Beyond that I'm carefully looking around at things that I might use to replace acting with as a career. Wednesday Rachel and I went to USC and toured the Law School. Sat in on a class (Contract Law) and was intrigued enough to give it some consideration. Contract law isn't exactly riveting but I could keep up with the discussion for the most part and saw the puzzle pieces falling into place as I did. Baring the fact that I'm missing large chunks of knowledge that the L1's there had I felt like I did all right in following along.
My current Career Thoughts
Psychology
Law
Architecture
Speech Pathology
For all these subjects I need to figure out what their options are. Career wise when I think about Lawyers, I think Court room. And for psychologists I think mental health patients. I need to open my understanding of these careers and see the whole picture rather than the small portion that probably stems from tv/movies.
I'm basically just looking into things that I know have been remotely interesting. Psychology is the first and fore most thought because it was the only other thing that I gave consideration to when I was getting into colleges as well as the fact that I always find it incredibly interesting. Not to mention the fact that it was the only subjects outside of the arts that I returned to regularly for my GE's and those extra classes. Talk to mr. Funder. Rachel brought up mediators/councilors.
Law I already mentioned.
Architecture I really love. Looking at buildings inside and out, reading articles about the thoughts behind certain architects buildings and their inspiration definitely turns me on... my actual ability and desire to do it is unknown.
Speech Pathology my cousin does. And I hear that right now school districts are in desperate need.. I would have to look into it.
And that is where nearly ALL my stress for the past two weeks has been coming from. It was good to get together with Rachel and have a massive 3 hour long talk about life and everything that is going on. I've relaxed significantly since Tuesday.
I am particularly scared of this secret..
because some times I worry that I would give up on alot of my dreams/desires/acomplishments if I was in love with/really committed to another person, just because it would be easy. And that wouldn't be right or at all ok to do that to the other person because in that situation I would probably be really depressed/upset and any other negative emotion you could think of.