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[unsatisfiedlife]

So my first year back at Maryville College is over. Funny, I think I started this LJ at Maryville College. Well from 02 to 10 I've raised my wretched GPA from a .71 to a 2.41 in just 2 semesters! I really want it to be about a 3.4 by the time I graduate. I've secretly added a third minor without telling my parents or grandmother. I know it seems excessive but if I can handle, then I am going to do it. For one, I feel like going back there and getting good grades just isn't good enough. I feel like I have to do something amazing to stand out. I want to do something to make those that know my story extra proud of me. For two, I really get tired of hearing about everyone else that is doing so well and how they are accomplishing so much more than I have. My cousin is graduating, my friend is graduating from a college I couldn't get into, and I hear of these 16 year old kids starting college. All this makes me want to tell people to fuck off, that their achievements are no better than mine and they need to quit acting as such. I figure a triple minor will get them to shut their traps a little. So I think that's where the motivation came from for the third minor and I hope I can keep that in focus over the next four semesters. School. Academia. I think I'll make it my life.

I somewhat like the idea of being a partial hermit, holed up for a couple of days with little human interaction working hard on a meaningless proof. Spending my time doing things that most will not understand and see no real point in appeals to me. I desire knowledge above all else. For what purpose, I'm oblivious, which is irrelevant. It's something I'm certain of and comfortably picture myself as a college advisor or academic counselor.