is this so bad?

[unsatisfiedlife]

i'm really not in this damn holiday spirit. im just not. it's a few days away and i feel so terrible for wishing that they were already over with. that's just how i am about them this year.

i'm not in the best of moods right now, and i have a couple reasons as to why. i'm hating this pattern right now. something needs to change it.

i want to vanish. i need something new.

just hate me already.