these were
RESOLUTIONS/GOALS:
- art art art art, something art related every day
- read 100 books in a year
- exercise
- do something when i say i will
- don't push everything to tomorrow
- focus on school, not on silly boys
- waste less time
- write to Johnica, Rachel, and Brent
- be less selfish
- waste less time on the computer
- make my parents proud of me
- make myself proud of me
These were my resolutions for the year of 2009.
It is now March 6th, 2009.
Let's see how I'm doing so far.
1. I have not done something art-related every day unless you count going to school and [mostly] getting all of my homework done on time. I am currently taking a break from working on a completely random mixed media project consisting of cardboard, duct tape, cheap canvas board, and a piece of gridiron. This one's for me, for once.
2. I've read one book.. Started another. Too much schoolwork to ever be able to attain this goal.
3. Mikey and I had been planning on going running almost daily. I broke up with him last week, however. I need someone to run with me. Or a treadmill. Maybe I shouldn't make so many excuses.
4. It's starting to seem like my personality traits do not allow for this. Working on it.. maybe tomorrow, ahahahah.
5. I haven't been doing so well at this.
6. I started playing Diablo again. However, I have stopped smoking pot for the most part. Less time wasted than last semester, for sure.
7. I wrote a letter to Johnica; awaiting a reply from her side in Oklahoma. I text Brent occasionally.. Should probably write to Rachel.
8. I've become much more polite in the last few months. I've finally started saying "thank you", holding doors open for people, and actually apologizing when I'm wrong.
9. .... I have nothing to say here. ha
10. I really, really think they are. This warms my heart.
11. I know I'm getting better, I know I am. There, of course, are still several things that I desperately need to work on. But I'm correcting my mistakes. I apologized to Brandon for three hours in my room on Monday. We kissed, I cried. We hung out again yesterday and saw the Watchmen with Keri, Danyel, Chad, and several other people. I think he's becoming rather apprehensive just as he did the first time we tried being together. It's okay, though. If he needs time, I'll give that to him. Space. I just know that he's the reason why I could never be happy with Bobby or Mikey. Or anyone for that matter. I've liked that boy for around three years now. Through Kolby, Bryce, Bobby, Mikey.. and all of the time in between. There is clearly something special about him that I kept trying to ignore for the sake of other people. It just wasn't working. If this doesn't work out the way that I've wanted it to for so long, then I'm losing 99% of my hope for ever finding someone that is right for me. I know that sounds fucking stupid and ridiculous, but Jesus, it's true.
- art art art art, something art related every day
- read 100 books in a year
- exercise
- do something when i say i will
- don't push everything to tomorrow
- focus on school, not on silly boys
- waste less time
- write to Johnica, Rachel, and Brent
- be less selfish
- waste less time on the computer
- make my parents proud of me
- make myself proud of me
These were my resolutions for the year of 2009.
It is now March 6th, 2009.
Let's see how I'm doing so far.
1. I have not done something art-related every day unless you count going to school and [mostly] getting all of my homework done on time. I am currently taking a break from working on a completely random mixed media project consisting of cardboard, duct tape, cheap canvas board, and a piece of gridiron. This one's for me, for once.
2. I've read one book.. Started another. Too much schoolwork to ever be able to attain this goal.
3. Mikey and I had been planning on going running almost daily. I broke up with him last week, however. I need someone to run with me. Or a treadmill. Maybe I shouldn't make so many excuses.
4. It's starting to seem like my personality traits do not allow for this. Working on it.. maybe tomorrow, ahahahah.
5. I haven't been doing so well at this.
6. I started playing Diablo again. However, I have stopped smoking pot for the most part. Less time wasted than last semester, for sure.
7. I wrote a letter to Johnica; awaiting a reply from her side in Oklahoma. I text Brent occasionally.. Should probably write to Rachel.
8. I've become much more polite in the last few months. I've finally started saying "thank you", holding doors open for people, and actually apologizing when I'm wrong.
9. .... I have nothing to say here. ha
10. I really, really think they are. This warms my heart.
11. I know I'm getting better, I know I am. There, of course, are still several things that I desperately need to work on. But I'm correcting my mistakes. I apologized to Brandon for three hours in my room on Monday. We kissed, I cried. We hung out again yesterday and saw the Watchmen with Keri, Danyel, Chad, and several other people. I think he's becoming rather apprehensive just as he did the first time we tried being together. It's okay, though. If he needs time, I'll give that to him. Space. I just know that he's the reason why I could never be happy with Bobby or Mikey. Or anyone for that matter. I've liked that boy for around three years now. Through Kolby, Bryce, Bobby, Mikey.. and all of the time in between. There is clearly something special about him that I kept trying to ignore for the sake of other people. It just wasn't working. If this doesn't work out the way that I've wanted it to for so long, then I'm losing 99% of my hope for ever finding someone that is right for me. I know that sounds fucking stupid and ridiculous, but Jesus, it's true.