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now.
Brandon was a no-go.
That's okay, though.. Kind of.
I've been going to Narcotics Anonymous. Been sober for about a week.. Got my one day of sobriety keytag. I'm grateful for the new life I have been given.. It's helping me with much more than just drugs. I have quite the addictive behavior, haha. I realize now that I have a big problem with keeping myself out of relationships, keeping myself from settling on people just to have a boyfriend. I need to get a better handle on myself and the direction of my life.
I've become much better friends with Angela as of late. I've known her since second grade but we have never been closer than we are now. Very grateful for this as well :)
I look forward to going to NA meetings everyday.. The time before them passes by so slowly. Like right now.. Three hours before the next meeting! Dammit.
The only problem is that I feel like my hope for ever finding someone who I am good enough for, who is also good enough for me is dwindling rapidly. I have high expectations and I guess I kind of fall short of the expectations of those who I am interested in. Good news is there is a guy at NA who talked to me about the Watchmen.. He's super cute. We'll see.. haha.. At least this will help to get my mind off of Brandon.
I'm just writing to myself
Don't worry about it
Brandon was a no-go.
That's okay, though.. Kind of.
I've been going to Narcotics Anonymous. Been sober for about a week.. Got my one day of sobriety keytag. I'm grateful for the new life I have been given.. It's helping me with much more than just drugs. I have quite the addictive behavior, haha. I realize now that I have a big problem with keeping myself out of relationships, keeping myself from settling on people just to have a boyfriend. I need to get a better handle on myself and the direction of my life.
I've become much better friends with Angela as of late. I've known her since second grade but we have never been closer than we are now. Very grateful for this as well :)
I look forward to going to NA meetings everyday.. The time before them passes by so slowly. Like right now.. Three hours before the next meeting! Dammit.
The only problem is that I feel like my hope for ever finding someone who I am good enough for, who is also good enough for me is dwindling rapidly. I have high expectations and I guess I kind of fall short of the expectations of those who I am interested in. Good news is there is a guy at NA who talked to me about the Watchmen.. He's super cute. We'll see.. haha.. At least this will help to get my mind off of Brandon.
I'm just writing to myself
Don't worry about it