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God help me please not to repeat the same mistakes I already made. I really don't think I can do it this time, it's too hard to resist. I set myself up for failure constantly. How long can I go about the way that I'm living that's full of things I truly have to be grateful for without just destroying it because of one very strong resentment of the toxicity that I thought was love. I don't know...you won't be seeing me for a while, if ever again. Just for today, but I already made plans for tomorrow...I can't handle this. I can't handle being crazy attracted to a boy and not destroy my life just to be with him. Thats my real addiction you know...