LJI 10 wk 6: Heel turn
I think I've reached burnout.
Lord, how many are my foes!
How many rise up against me!
Never happened to me before. I have always ~so passionately~ believed that there is room for improvement, and not just that, but that humans are actually capable of pulling together to achieve it.
Even a few days ago, I passionately believed this.
In fact, I didn't have much patience for people who were fairly arbitrary about declaring "enough is enough" based on things like their own energy levels. But I suppose it's true that my energy levels will eventually recuperate.
Many are saying of me,
“God will not deliver him.”
There is always SO. MUCH. that needs doing. That is important. Everyone wants something -- time, money, awareness -- But pressing on in the most important issues was getting us somewhere, wasn't it? Even if it was slowly?
No, it wasn't.
A lot more things were getting swept under the carpet. Like the largest and fastest-growing international crime (happening within borders as well as without). Human trafficking. With as many victims as there are people in Canada Sudan, and two new ones every minute.(1)(2)
And everybody's looking the other way -- looking at something else that's important, but not as important. Fill in the blank yourself here -- if you see the news (or facebook, which in my experience, is becoming ever-more political, kinda like LJ did in Russia) -- then you know what a lot of people are talking about.
But the problems getting worse just makes any perceived progress we had, ring hollow. Futile.
I am now, for the first time I can remember seriously wonder what is the point of trying to change things, when there is always more that wants something, and the most important issues are not even getting any attention.
But you, Lord, are a shield around me,
my glory, the One who lifts my head high.
That being said, there is still a God in Heaven. The local charity working to prevent human trafficking in the UK, in Staffordshire, where I live, referenced David and Goliath(3) in their most recent talk, with the words "There is most definitely a giant to kill, let's not pretend that there isn't. But the LORD is still bigger than the giant."
And that rouses my spirit more than anything else. Hallelujah.
Lord, how many are my foes!
How many rise up against me!
Never happened to me before. I have always ~so passionately~ believed that there is room for improvement, and not just that, but that humans are actually capable of pulling together to achieve it.
Even a few days ago, I passionately believed this.
In fact, I didn't have much patience for people who were fairly arbitrary about declaring "enough is enough" based on things like their own energy levels. But I suppose it's true that my energy levels will eventually recuperate.
Many are saying of me,
“God will not deliver him.”
There is always SO. MUCH. that needs doing. That is important. Everyone wants something -- time, money, awareness -- But pressing on in the most important issues was getting us somewhere, wasn't it? Even if it was slowly?
No, it wasn't.
A lot more things were getting swept under the carpet. Like the largest and fastest-growing international crime (happening within borders as well as without). Human trafficking. With as many victims as there are people in Canada Sudan, and two new ones every minute.(1)(2)
And everybody's looking the other way -- looking at something else that's important, but not as important. Fill in the blank yourself here -- if you see the news (or facebook, which in my experience, is becoming ever-more political, kinda like LJ did in Russia) -- then you know what a lot of people are talking about.
But the problems getting worse just makes any perceived progress we had, ring hollow. Futile.
I am now, for the first time I can remember seriously wonder what is the point of trying to change things, when there is always more that wants something, and the most important issues are not even getting any attention.
But you, Lord, are a shield around me,
my glory, the One who lifts my head high.
That being said, there is still a God in Heaven. The local charity working to prevent human trafficking in the UK, in Staffordshire, where I live, referenced David and Goliath(3) in their most recent talk, with the words "There is most definitely a giant to kill, let's not pretend that there isn't. But the LORD is still bigger than the giant."
And that rouses my spirit more than anything else. Hallelujah.