It's done.
Since the_ee wants to drag this into a public forum, I won't allow him to screen my reply to his entry.
Here it is:
Last Sunday I gave you a test; I told you something about myself that I've never told anyone - something utterly humiliating. You scarcely even gave me a nod before going back to talking about yourself. I might as well have shouted it off a cliff for all the good it did me - at least then I would've heard an echo.
You know what? That's you, Jason: selfish. You try to play the martyr, you try to talk about how selfless you are, but it's all BULLSHIT. You like to play at being magnaminous, but really your first concern is always Jason. Your shit doesn't stink and everything you do is for the sake of some higher cause. If your excuses and explanations were placed end to end, they could encircle the Earth. You are, as they used to say, one righteous dude.
Being so selfless, however, you of course expect compensation. If you don't get yours - oh boy - suddenly it's BREAKING NEWS, suddenly Jason is sitting in the middle of a public place wailing "Hey everyone, I have a messy diaper!" Nevermind the fact that we all have our own shit to sit in - everyone stop what you're doing and change Jason's diaper.
So go ahead, play the victim, misrepresent the situation, demonize those that've hurt you. Don't forgive, don't forget, don't even try to understand. By all means, CHOOSE to wallow in misery, and poison everything you say and do with the bitterness. I'm through with you. I just can't fucking take it anymore. I won't let you do this to me.
I sense that you want to say "BUT LOOK WHAT THEY DID TO ME!" You know what, fuck you. This doesn't have anything to do with anyone but ME and YOU, and how you treat me and our friendship. I told you that I could't get involved in this situation, and yet you still persisted, still hounded me, constantly tried to convince me that they were the devil incarnate. I won't apologize for having them as friends.
Now here you are dragging shit into a public forum. You're just being vindictive - can't you see that? You're never going to be done bitching about this. You're never going to get enough love, attention or sympathy to feel okay about this. It's never going to end until you LET. IT. GO. Unfortunately that's not in your nature... you'd rather scratch the wound until it's bloody, infected and stinking up the joint.
Maybe we can talk about this in the distant future after you've had some time to think about how you've treated me. Until then, out of respect for a once friend, I'll keep all my promises to you and all the secrets you never trusted me with. Unlike YOU, I DO feel that something is owed to a former friend. For now, we're done. This friendship is over. Don't call me. Don't email me. If you reply to this comment, I won't read it.
[By the way, I made sure that Jason was paid the money he was owed. He didn't have any business spending it in the first place and has no one but himself to blame for having done so. Playing the hero is expensive - go fucking figure.]
Here it is:
Last Sunday I gave you a test; I told you something about myself that I've never told anyone - something utterly humiliating. You scarcely even gave me a nod before going back to talking about yourself. I might as well have shouted it off a cliff for all the good it did me - at least then I would've heard an echo.
You know what? That's you, Jason: selfish. You try to play the martyr, you try to talk about how selfless you are, but it's all BULLSHIT. You like to play at being magnaminous, but really your first concern is always Jason. Your shit doesn't stink and everything you do is for the sake of some higher cause. If your excuses and explanations were placed end to end, they could encircle the Earth. You are, as they used to say, one righteous dude.
Being so selfless, however, you of course expect compensation. If you don't get yours - oh boy - suddenly it's BREAKING NEWS, suddenly Jason is sitting in the middle of a public place wailing "Hey everyone, I have a messy diaper!" Nevermind the fact that we all have our own shit to sit in - everyone stop what you're doing and change Jason's diaper.
So go ahead, play the victim, misrepresent the situation, demonize those that've hurt you. Don't forgive, don't forget, don't even try to understand. By all means, CHOOSE to wallow in misery, and poison everything you say and do with the bitterness. I'm through with you. I just can't fucking take it anymore. I won't let you do this to me.
I sense that you want to say "BUT LOOK WHAT THEY DID TO ME!" You know what, fuck you. This doesn't have anything to do with anyone but ME and YOU, and how you treat me and our friendship. I told you that I could't get involved in this situation, and yet you still persisted, still hounded me, constantly tried to convince me that they were the devil incarnate. I won't apologize for having them as friends.
Now here you are dragging shit into a public forum. You're just being vindictive - can't you see that? You're never going to be done bitching about this. You're never going to get enough love, attention or sympathy to feel okay about this. It's never going to end until you LET. IT. GO. Unfortunately that's not in your nature... you'd rather scratch the wound until it's bloody, infected and stinking up the joint.
Maybe we can talk about this in the distant future after you've had some time to think about how you've treated me. Until then, out of respect for a once friend, I'll keep all my promises to you and all the secrets you never trusted me with. Unlike YOU, I DO feel that something is owed to a former friend. For now, we're done. This friendship is over. Don't call me. Don't email me. If you reply to this comment, I won't read it.
[By the way, I made sure that Jason was paid the money he was owed. He didn't have any business spending it in the first place and has no one but himself to blame for having done so. Playing the hero is expensive - go fucking figure.]