Birthday
Today my son is 4, a whole 4 years old.
It is amazing.
My life has changed so much .... so so so much since he has been brought into this world. It has been every bit of every single emotion possible. There were days I couldn't do it, there were days its been nothing but a blast and days ... I have been so frustrated I could cry. There are days I've felt all 3 and then some. I've gone from being a happy family to a miserable family to a single mom to a happy family and a mom of two all in those 4 years. Its been so great. He is truely a fantastic child, he is so greatful and ... loving. Even today, with the day being made about him, he accepted it with a " I love you mom, thank you so much for today" and ... then even gave his little sister a hug, he told me he was happy we could be together today and that I didn't have to work. It made me fill with joy and also ... sadness because I am missing out on him a lot.
Just I guess in a nutshell, Happy Birthday my dear son, you litterally mean the world to me, you are my first true love and I am so happy to have you in my life. I know you will grow and we will argue and have hard times, I know you will not always be my sweet small little boy but I really do feel like I am filling you with the best lessons I can.
It is amazing.
My life has changed so much .... so so so much since he has been brought into this world. It has been every bit of every single emotion possible. There were days I couldn't do it, there were days its been nothing but a blast and days ... I have been so frustrated I could cry. There are days I've felt all 3 and then some. I've gone from being a happy family to a miserable family to a single mom to a happy family and a mom of two all in those 4 years. Its been so great. He is truely a fantastic child, he is so greatful and ... loving. Even today, with the day being made about him, he accepted it with a " I love you mom, thank you so much for today" and ... then even gave his little sister a hug, he told me he was happy we could be together today and that I didn't have to work. It made me fill with joy and also ... sadness because I am missing out on him a lot.
Just I guess in a nutshell, Happy Birthday my dear son, you litterally mean the world to me, you are my first true love and I am so happy to have you in my life. I know you will grow and we will argue and have hard times, I know you will not always be my sweet small little boy but I really do feel like I am filling you with the best lessons I can.