::yawn::
So sleepy this morning, I did 4 suduko and ... 3 of them I couldn't finish and they were on easy haha so you know its an off morning for me. I am extremely thankful that for the first time in MONTHS I didn't pull a double and I just had to come into work this morning. So while I am sleepy I am not aching and exhausted and dead.
Things over all have gotten a lot better, we are settled into our new place and I feel like as a whole things are doing better, James is finally working and keeping up his end of money which really has been a HUGE stress release for me, I am not constantly worried about all that shit, I am still up shits creek money wise but it will get worked out in time.
Benny is going to be 3 in 6 days and its just ... amazing. 3 ... where did the time go, every day is a blessing with him though. Really I know I say it a lot but it really is. I absolutely ADORE him. all I ever want to do is kiss him and cuddle with him and tell him how much I love him and I just want him to tell me funny stuff. He drives me equally bonkers with saying mom every half second ...
I can't really complain. Things got kinda tough for a bit, and I am sure they will only get worse but ... for the most part ... things have gotten a lot happier in our home.
Work has been rough though, I love hotels but the more I work here the more I hate being here, I am just sick of the issues. Last weekend we had no hot water for 2 days and then again this morning it started. If I had a hotel I could be proud of and was able to fix issues vs. covering them up I would be much happier. But when you have a hotel owner who could care less until he starts loosing money what are you supposed to do?
The baby girl is still unamed, shes starting to get to the ... too big for my comfort point. Heartburn is fucking miserable I've never really had it in life ... so its been rough because its just a constantly FLAME in your body. Like really it just feels like I am internally on fire. I am getting more and more excited ... I am still really worried. I had a morning the other day where I just kinda started freaking out about everything, because ... I was just so tired and I had to take james to work and boog was sick and up a lot the night before and it was one of those omg overwhelming mornings.Like, how are we going to add one more to this mess. But ... pure and simple its just going to be an adjustment.
Things over all have gotten a lot better, we are settled into our new place and I feel like as a whole things are doing better, James is finally working and keeping up his end of money which really has been a HUGE stress release for me, I am not constantly worried about all that shit, I am still up shits creek money wise but it will get worked out in time.
Benny is going to be 3 in 6 days and its just ... amazing. 3 ... where did the time go, every day is a blessing with him though. Really I know I say it a lot but it really is. I absolutely ADORE him. all I ever want to do is kiss him and cuddle with him and tell him how much I love him and I just want him to tell me funny stuff. He drives me equally bonkers with saying mom every half second ...
I can't really complain. Things got kinda tough for a bit, and I am sure they will only get worse but ... for the most part ... things have gotten a lot happier in our home.
Work has been rough though, I love hotels but the more I work here the more I hate being here, I am just sick of the issues. Last weekend we had no hot water for 2 days and then again this morning it started. If I had a hotel I could be proud of and was able to fix issues vs. covering them up I would be much happier. But when you have a hotel owner who could care less until he starts loosing money what are you supposed to do?
The baby girl is still unamed, shes starting to get to the ... too big for my comfort point. Heartburn is fucking miserable I've never really had it in life ... so its been rough because its just a constantly FLAME in your body. Like really it just feels like I am internally on fire. I am getting more and more excited ... I am still really worried. I had a morning the other day where I just kinda started freaking out about everything, because ... I was just so tired and I had to take james to work and boog was sick and up a lot the night before and it was one of those omg overwhelming mornings.Like, how are we going to add one more to this mess. But ... pure and simple its just going to be an adjustment.