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[unlucky_47]

i don't want to be a jerk
to either of you
but i cant help it.
i'm sorry if i say hateful things.
i know that things will be ok in the end.
i know that things will happen for the best.
i know that u still love me, u told me last night
and everyday before.
but for right now, i understand that your happy.
just understand that i'm hurt regardless.
just as you were.
i wasn't sure what i wanted before,
and i thought it was possible to live without you
because there were things that made me temporarily happy.
now i realize that it has always been u that made me the happiest.
you sent me flowers and made up songs about me.
and told me how my beauty radiates through the land
and talk of how we'll spend our lives
away from this evil place called america.
on our organic farms with our little babies and cattle
away from the harm and the hate this place brings.
you told me last night that this was still all going to happen
that our dreams will still come true.
and even though we have deceived each other
even thought we'll both do it once more before this is all over
i know it was out of love.
and i know that u will be home soon
to grow old with me.