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school started and the first football game has come and gone (we lost 0-55) and things seem to be going ok.. i havent missed school but its still early and ive been doing all my homework and been able to still go out which is good.. but its only the beginning.
ive been hanging out with the old crew more (casie shaina betsy etc) and thats ok.. but i really wish that things were going better for em.. shes stuck in New Britian and according to her, it sucks there. i only see her on the weekends now.. compared to like EVERYDAY lol but its good we still talk.
but i wish that i was able to be friends with lars agian. i know that she needs it... from what i hear from my mom.. since her mom and my mom are like how lars and i used to be. But i dont know if thats ever going to happen because according to my mom shes really pissed at me and i understand i did fuck up our relationship and i know i hurt her.. i hurt myself in the process, and i regret it. Seeing her in my study hall every morning makes me want to talk to her but i know its a lost cause cause all she has been doing is ignoring me, i dont know ill just have to see what happens from here maybe things will get better.. but i worry bout her everyday.. she looks miserable.. at least to me idk maybe im just crazy :/
ive been hanging out with the old crew more (casie shaina betsy etc) and thats ok.. but i really wish that things were going better for em.. shes stuck in New Britian and according to her, it sucks there. i only see her on the weekends now.. compared to like EVERYDAY lol but its good we still talk.
but i wish that i was able to be friends with lars agian. i know that she needs it... from what i hear from my mom.. since her mom and my mom are like how lars and i used to be. But i dont know if thats ever going to happen because according to my mom shes really pissed at me and i understand i did fuck up our relationship and i know i hurt her.. i hurt myself in the process, and i regret it. Seeing her in my study hall every morning makes me want to talk to her but i know its a lost cause cause all she has been doing is ignoring me, i dont know ill just have to see what happens from here maybe things will get better.. but i worry bout her everyday.. she looks miserable.. at least to me idk maybe im just crazy :/