oh hello LJ
my computer died, since then I have gone through 3 sort of temporary replacements, or 4 really. got my ancient desktop hobbling along first, barely adequate for checking email, it has difficulty with all the high RAM requirements of the modern interweb. then my brother had a couple of laptops lying around unused, gave me one, which was definitely a step way up, but still slow, then another, and told me to pick one and return the other. then his wife gave me her boss's old desktop, which is my current PC for all intents and purposes until I can afford a proper one with enough RAM to edit video on for example, and record music.
a power failure cooked my old PC's motherboard, but not the hard drive. after deciding spending up to $300 US possibly, to fix a machine I could replace for $500 with something far better was not a good idea, I found for $25 I could stick my old hard drive into a box, and voila, there's all my data, and photos, and everything, hoorah! it's like, "Honey I shrunk the PC". so far I've only accessed files from it, haven't tried to use the software in it, which should all work, as far as it knows, it's still in its tower I imagine, but it'll probably all run faster installed on the hard drive of the machine I'm using. trying to keep it empty, clean and simple as possible for as long as possible. my life is way too complex as it is.
I feel like I've moved 4 times in the last month, trying to remember what websites I visit regularly, make sure I have the latest versions of business records on the machine I'm currently using. I found a laptop too convenient, I could take it anywhere, and get distracted anywhere. not good for me. this is why I don't use my phone to view the internet, even though in theory I could. I resisted getting a cel phone for as long as possible, until someone gave me one, and I had to admit, it was more useful than my pager had been. I like the internet to be the size of a computer monitor, not the size of a postcard. do I have to rewrite my website so it looks good on your phone? the internet killed everything, and then phones killed the internet. bah humbug.
in other me news, my mood has been a rollercoaster lately battling depression, interspersed with moments of awesomeness, like at the last minute deciding to go see Monique Ortiz in a rare local appearance since she moved to TX, she's Mark Sandman's protege on the 2 string slide bass, and effectively the premier player of that relatively obscure instrument. I showed her the one I built and she wanted to buy it off me right then and there, loved the sound and feel. I can't part with it but I might be building one for her. that was a pretty awesome night.
in many ways I live like a king, and most of my friends, even the ones struggling every day with illness that makes their lives difficult, we live like royalty compared to much of the world, so I have no right to complain. in spite of this, depression is a real thing, how about that. oh the problems of the bourgeoisie, (thank you spellcheck), I have to remind myself of that expression, "you wouldn't tell someone 'it's just cancer, get over it', yet we do that with depression, also an actual illness." I think it's easier to write it off because if I was starving in some 3rd world country with bullets flying over my head I might have a more understandable reason for being down in the dumps at times.
so what to do about it?
sigh. I always start with the dishes. doing the dishes, which are now filling the sink, gives me a sense of accomplishment, and the accompanying momentum can cause me to get something else done. so that's what I'll do. the dishes.
I also need a shower rather badly. to do laundry, clean my bedroom, office, the living room, my van, my workshop, and a room in my mum's attic. I think I need a dental appointment too, and I have to finish my taxes, long overdue. 3 years I think. and get some health insurance. and to finish a painting I owe someone. and the other ones I began. and more tattooing, and music. makes one's head swim to think of everything on the to-do list, so, one at a time. top priorities first.
I'll let you know how it goes.
a power failure cooked my old PC's motherboard, but not the hard drive. after deciding spending up to $300 US possibly, to fix a machine I could replace for $500 with something far better was not a good idea, I found for $25 I could stick my old hard drive into a box, and voila, there's all my data, and photos, and everything, hoorah! it's like, "Honey I shrunk the PC". so far I've only accessed files from it, haven't tried to use the software in it, which should all work, as far as it knows, it's still in its tower I imagine, but it'll probably all run faster installed on the hard drive of the machine I'm using. trying to keep it empty, clean and simple as possible for as long as possible. my life is way too complex as it is.
I feel like I've moved 4 times in the last month, trying to remember what websites I visit regularly, make sure I have the latest versions of business records on the machine I'm currently using. I found a laptop too convenient, I could take it anywhere, and get distracted anywhere. not good for me. this is why I don't use my phone to view the internet, even though in theory I could. I resisted getting a cel phone for as long as possible, until someone gave me one, and I had to admit, it was more useful than my pager had been. I like the internet to be the size of a computer monitor, not the size of a postcard. do I have to rewrite my website so it looks good on your phone? the internet killed everything, and then phones killed the internet. bah humbug.
in other me news, my mood has been a rollercoaster lately battling depression, interspersed with moments of awesomeness, like at the last minute deciding to go see Monique Ortiz in a rare local appearance since she moved to TX, she's Mark Sandman's protege on the 2 string slide bass, and effectively the premier player of that relatively obscure instrument. I showed her the one I built and she wanted to buy it off me right then and there, loved the sound and feel. I can't part with it but I might be building one for her. that was a pretty awesome night.
in many ways I live like a king, and most of my friends, even the ones struggling every day with illness that makes their lives difficult, we live like royalty compared to much of the world, so I have no right to complain. in spite of this, depression is a real thing, how about that. oh the problems of the bourgeoisie, (thank you spellcheck), I have to remind myself of that expression, "you wouldn't tell someone 'it's just cancer, get over it', yet we do that with depression, also an actual illness." I think it's easier to write it off because if I was starving in some 3rd world country with bullets flying over my head I might have a more understandable reason for being down in the dumps at times.
so what to do about it?
sigh. I always start with the dishes. doing the dishes, which are now filling the sink, gives me a sense of accomplishment, and the accompanying momentum can cause me to get something else done. so that's what I'll do. the dishes.
I also need a shower rather badly. to do laundry, clean my bedroom, office, the living room, my van, my workshop, and a room in my mum's attic. I think I need a dental appointment too, and I have to finish my taxes, long overdue. 3 years I think. and get some health insurance. and to finish a painting I owe someone. and the other ones I began. and more tattooing, and music. makes one's head swim to think of everything on the to-do list, so, one at a time. top priorities first.
I'll let you know how it goes.