We met up for drinks the other day. He says he doesn't know how much longer they will last. And five drinks later we were right back in the same position we always end up in. Only this time, I said no. I want him, but I want all of him. And right now, he's still hers.

Tomorrow it becomes reality.

Tomorrow I meet the new girl.

Tomorrow...it gets interesting.

We met. We talked. It was good. Then things got crazy. And we ended up in the same situation we'd put ourselves in so many times before ( Read more... )

He called last night and said he wanted to talk. Guess I know him like the back of my hand. But this time will be different. Because this cycle we're in has to in. 6 years of off and on is killing me.

This journal only exists anymore because of him.

And that's why this time HAS to be different.

I've come to a realization. Finally. I have nothing to worry about. He'll come back. He always does. Yeah, he always chooses the other girl over me. But none of those relationships ever worked out in the long run. And why should this one be any different ( Read more... )

The Boy is exactly who he will always be. Never The Man. Sucks.

I've been reading old entries. Weird that my life really has become a cycle. I knew that The Boy and I had a "history" but how did I miss the fact that it's always been heading in this direction? Yeah, he never physically cheated on his first girlfriend with me, but the emotional side was definitely there. And if him and I have always had this ( Read more... )

So I guess this is why I haven't been writing ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here at nearly 5 in the morning, an hour away from completing the graveyard shift at the radio station, and for some reason I feel compelled to write ( Read more... )

I have never felt more alone and hurt than I do right now. Happy new year.