Am I really hormonal right now, or have the last couple days really been that much back and forth with the good and bad? I honestly can't tell. I'm so distracted and worked up over... everything, yet nothing. I just. Argh.

Hmmmm

I'm not sure exactly how I want to say what I want to say. I guess I'll start by describing what happened today. I'm not mad about it, or upset, but it is still on my mind and I feel like talking about it.

( Cut for Introspective Nerdery and also mild gore? )

I wish I knew how to have confidence in my stuff. I keep worrying about what people will think, if it'll look dumb, if it's not good enough. Then I keep worrying that the teacher is especially looking at me and thinking how I'm not trying hard enough or doing it right because I'm not doing the same sort of thing as everyone else. I keep thinking I ( Read more... )