wedding fun
it's official. I am now known as "the bouquet catcher" at church. 3 actually caught. 4 recieved... i picked up the one my sister threw and no one wanted when i was 10. but yes... i am the champion!
the day started out kinda weird... the weather felt like my mood. i wasn't in the mood to go to a wedding... let alone do anything but analyze the situation i got bombarded with this past week.
i was brave this morning, but now, after having the day to not think about the situation at all, i wish i hadn't sent that email. it's not like it's a bad thing, just wanting to talk. but maybe it's not really necessary. i don't know... i'm kinda just sick of the whole thing. it was my fault. all of it. just stupidness on my part, even though deep down i knew that i didn't have a chance...now i just feel like everything has been blown way out of proportion. but oh well.... we're probably going to talk and i'm going to get things off my chest.... which hopefully will be a friend builder.
lets hope.... not like its really helped before, but that's just me being the protagonist and antagonist at the same time.
the day started out kinda weird... the weather felt like my mood. i wasn't in the mood to go to a wedding... let alone do anything but analyze the situation i got bombarded with this past week.
i was brave this morning, but now, after having the day to not think about the situation at all, i wish i hadn't sent that email. it's not like it's a bad thing, just wanting to talk. but maybe it's not really necessary. i don't know... i'm kinda just sick of the whole thing. it was my fault. all of it. just stupidness on my part, even though deep down i knew that i didn't have a chance...now i just feel like everything has been blown way out of proportion. but oh well.... we're probably going to talk and i'm going to get things off my chest.... which hopefully will be a friend builder.
lets hope.... not like its really helped before, but that's just me being the protagonist and antagonist at the same time.