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i dont know what i want. i find myself wishing i had some sort of direction. im sad because i want to leave. im sad because i dont want to leave. i feel like im just kidding myself when i try to be optomistic sometimes.the only thing i can certainly say i want is the one thing i cant have and quite possibly may never have because i am DOOMED to forever be denied the emotional fufillment i so desperatly desire. maybe my downfall is a lack of complete trust but its so hard to have any real faith in anyone because everyone just wants to shit on each other all the fucking time and I DONT UNDERSTAND IT.
I
JUST
WANT
OUR
ROOTS
TO
INTERTWINE
AND
NEVER BECOME
UNTIED
maybe its just this goddamn rain.
i sprained my ankle.
god I FEEL SO FUCKING FRUSTRATED because time is always against me
JUSTGOJUSTGOJUSTGOJUSTGOJUSTFUCKINGGO
WHY CANT THIS BE RECIPROCAL
why am i such a mess
this is stupid
i ought to be ashamed for painting such sad pitiful portrait