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i should be sleeping now. this is something i think alot, because alot of the time im awake when i should be sleeping. sometimes i wonder if i have a hard time ever going to sleep because its connected to a deep subconcious fear of dying. i think when im old ill just never sleep, that way i can never die in my sleep, or at all i suppose. my sleep schedule has become increasingly worse since ive been going to night school. ive become digustingly unproductive and i cant help but love it. i jsut sleep till 1 or 2 or 3 or whenever the fuck i feel like sleeping till except past 4 cause i have to go to fuck-up-kids school with all the fuck up kids and get graded for basically just sitting in class and not sleeping, or until carlo comes over and wakes me up to jam because he didnt go to school because he had to shit or becau he didnt feel like going to school, or because he had to take advantage of having the house to himself so he can jerk off with his tears while burning a picture of meg. then i come home and stay up till all hours of the night doing absolutly nothing. this is a nothing which includes pirating music from the internet and watching amc till the sun comes up. the best is when they play charles bronson marathons all night. god i fucking love charles bronson. somehow i feel inclined to feel some sort of guilt over going to night school but like ive done something wrong, i guess because thats how youre conditioned to feel in school so they have leverage over you, but i dont feel bad, i just cant because now i get to watch death wish whenever its on, which is usually once a week or so. did i mention i fucking love charles bronson? i also love this band, theyre called Algernon Cadwallader, theyre emo, btu good emo. theyre like if American Football and Capn Jazz shit a rainbow together. you know? its just like feel good music with great raspy yell/singing vocals. i just feel like everyone needs to know about them. i should be sleeping now. i have a show tommorow so i should be resting. but im not because i cant. im really excited, not that its keeping me up though. i should be sleeping now. im going to sleep now.