Problems with my Mother, Psych Stuff, Going to California

[unico_love]

Things still are up and down with my mother. Someone on Facebook keeps telling her what I say about her. I'm just not going to discuss her over there anymore. I will talk about her here, which I should have done from the beginning, but I am not good at thinking logically lately. I've been very depressed and anxious, even with doubling both my Risperdal and Neurontin. I noticed zero change from the increase. My psychiatrist is on vacation until April 7th! :( But I am having his stand-in doctor call me and he might call in a Saphris prescription for me. I used to be on Saphris and had a good response, but then that dwindled. But now I've been treated for a long time for Lyme and Bartonella and I'm on an herbal rx for a virus, so I might have better luck with it. Risperdal isn't helping, anyways, and my hyerprolactanemia might get even more under control switching to Saphris, and I might lose weight. I am afraid to weigh myself. I did eventually gain back about 8lbs that I lost last summer. I had lost a total of 24lbs then. I was about at my half-way point for how much weight I needed to lose.

I am going to California in a little over a month to visit my dear, very ill, friend. I will be there over 3 weeks. I will be staying with my friend, but the flight alone will make this a very expensive trip. Plus I need more cash than usual. I have a lot of plans for the summer, and I hope my body cooperates. I've just been so ill the past few years. Despite the cease in weight loss, I feel I am getting stronger. Also the psychological problems are still bad, but the seizures are lessened.