DON'T FUDGE THIS UP LJ!! ALSO DID NOT PROOFREAD SO YEAH MESS OF FEELS I was a fan of many k-pop groups already; I did not need more, especially one that was made up of twelve members. THIS IS ME. Honestly if I see a group that has more than 7, I wouldn't bother to check them out. I know with that many members I wouldn't like everyone, and it's weird but I wanna like everyone in a group. So my surprise when I checked out EXO and I couldn't pick a bias, and that never happened to me before. Fast forward to now and I have five, though sometimes someone tries to change it. This was the first time I cried over any k-pop group, musical artist, or celebrity. The only other group I cried over was BIGBANG and that's when they won at the EMAs. It was the first time we saw them since the scandals and I honestly was worried for Daesung and if he would come back. So seeing them all five together just made me lose it. So when I cried over M winning that award, I knew this was big. I knew for that point I would follow them until the end. It’s a night I will never forget because I had so much fun streaming the awards ceremony from my computer with twitter, tumblr, and exochocolate all opened at the same time to talk to (read: scream and keyboard smash at) my fandom friends. ME TOO, that was actually when I delurked at exochocolate. I wouldn't say scared but I was a bit hesitant to post before that so I would just lurk. But I really want to join in and spazz with people who also like EXO as much as I did. My friends that evenlike kpop were so sick of me talking about EXO. The MAMAs played a significant part in what made me want to stay in EXO fandom since even thought I was "new" I didn't feel isolated. Totally do not regret skipping class. lol, the professor didn't even show up anyway. ADDING IN KCON I do kinda regret not seeing EXO at SMTOWNLA but Jay Park was in NY that same weekend. I had money to fly out there but I kinda hesitated because was I ready to spend maybe close to $1,000 to see a group? Yes I love them but this was a big step for me. So I didn't go but when the fancams came out I feel so jealous and my heart hurtled since I knew I could be there but chose not too. And I told myself if EXO ever came back again, I would see them. I just had to see them. So when KCON announced M was coming, I screamed, I cried, I made weird whale noises but I knew I would be there. And I didn't even go over my money limit! I literally was only there for Saturday. I arrived Friday night and left Sunday morning. I had a midterm Monday morning so I had to take an early flight. But seeing them live, hearing them live was worth it. I might have not gotten an autograph, talk to them one on one for a few seconds but I left that concert so happy. I knew if EXO comes again to America I will be there. UGH KRISWATCH2013 That really tested fandom. Ngl but I was scared since there were rumors of Kris leaving or that M would go on hiatus. I know some people got annoyed by how big it was made but I can't see an EXO with Kris. That goes with any member of EXO, even Sehun. They all play a role in EXO. To think last year, I was just streaming K on Inkigayo and M at 12th Mengniu Music Chart Awards Ceremony and that really should have tipped me off that this was a group I would grow to love. I like sleeping but here I was staying up late because I just had to see it as it happened. A year later, I'm spazzing over fanboard replies. But I made some amazing friends who honestly mean a lot to me and I thank EXO for that. I thank EXO for putting a smile on my face. I thank EXO for working so hard to make us, fans happy. Hell, I even thank SM bringing these amazing group of twelve boys together. still hate you for no comeback though Even without the lack of activity, my love is still strong. I wouldn't be leaving this fandom any time soon.
I couldn't pick a bias, and that never happened to me before One of the infamous things about becoming an EXO fan lol. tbh it was very easy for me to pick a bias (as you well know haha), but what has never happened to me before was loving every single member in a k-pop group. All twelve! At first I only had eyes for Kai and Kris but that has long since changed. There is just something about EXO; I have yet to figure out what, though.
The only other group I cried over was BIGBANG and that's when they won at the EMAs Even though I loved Big Bang at that time, I was never in love with them as I am with EXO and I wasn't involved with the Big Bang fandom. I followed their scandals only loosely so when Big Bang appeared as 5 again at the EMAs, I felt proud (wow, they won that award!) but there was no sense of overwhelming feelings gushing out of my heart like when EXO won ;~; I guess it might have something to do with watching EXO grow? Whereas with Big Bang, I wasn't following them day-to-day, so I could see their growth but I didn't experience it.
I'm so glad you went to k-con (and I am extremely jealous!! haha). k-con was already amazing enough when I was just streaming it on my computer, I can't even imagine what it was like to be there?!?! I literally cannot wait for another SMTOWN because I really, really need to see them in person.
Yeah, I know, Kris Watch 2013 really tested a lot of EXO fans' patience. There were some fans who did not like Kris that much and were getting tired of us Kris stans whining and crying every day. But it seriously was so worrying ;~; It would have been worrying had it been any EXO member, but it made me realize how much a part of EXO Kris is and how much I love him. (It really warms my heart when a non-Kris stan says that his prolonged absence made them appreciate him more.) Some days I wanted to tell myself to stop worrying so much and get a grip and focus on the happy things but I really couldn't. I remember thinking, wow, I did not sign up for this when I first got into EXO. (Becoming an EXO fan has so full of crazy ups and downs; I would have never predicted any of this!!) But I couldn't quit ;A;
Even without the lack of activity, my love is still strong I think this is one of the most surprising parts for me, to be honest? Before EXO, I didn't have only one #1 favorite group; I liked Beast, CN Blue, SS501, and Big Bang and they all rotated through the #1 spot for me. Once the current favorite group went inactive, I moved onto one of the other three lol. But EXO stopped MAMA promotions since the end of the summer and, yes, they've had concerts and overseas activities here and there, but they've been largely inactive (especially the past three months). It has really surprised me that I've actively stuck with EXO for so long, even through periods of uncertainty (like Wolf and Kris Watch 2013) and with no sign of a comeback in sight. This made me realize that even when I grow too old to fangirl everyday, EXO will still have a very special place in my heart.
I was a fan of many k-pop groups already; I did not need more, especially one that was made up of twelve members.
THIS IS ME. Honestly if I see a group that has more than 7, I wouldn't bother to check them out. I know with that many members I wouldn't like everyone, and it's weird but I wanna like everyone in a group. So my surprise when I checked out EXO and I couldn't pick a bias, and that never happened to me before. Fast forward to now and I have five, though sometimes someone tries to change it.
This was the first time I cried over any k-pop group, musical artist, or celebrity.
The only other group I cried over was BIGBANG and that's when they won at the EMAs. It was the first time we saw them since the scandals and I honestly was worried for Daesung and if he would come back. So seeing them all five together just made me lose it. So when I cried over M winning that award, I knew this was big. I knew for that point I would follow them until the end.
It’s a night I will never forget because I had so much fun streaming the awards ceremony from my computer with twitter, tumblr, and exochocolate all opened at the same time to talk to (read: scream and keyboard smash at) my fandom friends.
ME TOO, that was actually when I delurked at exochocolate. I wouldn't say scared but I was a bit hesitant to post before that so I would just lurk. But I really want to join in and spazz with people who also like EXO as much as I did. My friends that evenlike kpop were so sick of me talking about EXO. The MAMAs played a significant part in what made me want to stay in EXO fandom since even thought I was "new" I didn't feel isolated. Totally do not regret skipping class. lol, the professor didn't even show up anyway.
ADDING IN KCON
I do kinda regret not seeing EXO at SMTOWNLA but Jay Park was in NY that same weekend. I had money to fly out there but I kinda hesitated because was I ready to spend maybe close to $1,000 to see a group? Yes I love them but this was a big step for me. So I didn't go but when the fancams came out I feel so jealous and my heart hurtled since I knew I could be there but chose not too. And I told myself if EXO ever came back again, I would see them. I just had to see them. So when KCON announced M was coming, I screamed, I cried, I made weird whale noises but I knew I would be there. And I didn't even go over my money limit! I literally was only there for Saturday. I arrived Friday night and left Sunday morning. I had a midterm Monday morning so I had to take an early flight. But seeing them live, hearing them live was worth it. I might have not gotten an autograph, talk to them one on one for a few seconds but I left that concert so happy. I knew if EXO comes again to America I will be there.
UGH KRISWATCH2013
That really tested fandom. Ngl but I was scared since there were rumors of Kris leaving or that M would go on hiatus. I know some people got annoyed by how big it was made but I can't see an EXO with Kris. That goes with any member of EXO, even Sehun. They all play a role in EXO.
To think last year, I was just streaming K on Inkigayo and M at 12th Mengniu Music Chart Awards Ceremony and that really should have tipped me off that this was a group I would grow to love. I like sleeping but here I was staying up late because I just had to see it as it happened. A year later, I'm spazzing over fanboard replies. But I made some amazing friends who honestly mean a lot to me and I thank EXO for that. I thank EXO for putting a smile on my face. I thank EXO for working so hard to make us, fans happy. Hell, I even thank SM bringing these amazing group of twelve boys together. still hate you for no comeback though Even without the lack of activity, my love is still strong. I wouldn't be leaving this fandom any time soon.
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I couldn't pick a bias, and that never happened to me before
One of the infamous things about becoming an EXO fan lol. tbh it was very easy for me to pick a bias (as you well know haha), but what has never happened to me before was loving every single member in a k-pop group. All twelve! At first I only had eyes for Kai and Kris but that has long since changed. There is just something about EXO; I have yet to figure out what, though.
The only other group I cried over was BIGBANG and that's when they won at the EMAs
Even though I loved Big Bang at that time, I was never in love with them as I am with EXO and I wasn't involved with the Big Bang fandom. I followed their scandals only loosely so when Big Bang appeared as 5 again at the EMAs, I felt proud (wow, they won that award!) but there was no sense of overwhelming feelings gushing out of my heart like when EXO won ;~; I guess it might have something to do with watching EXO grow? Whereas with Big Bang, I wasn't following them day-to-day, so I could see their growth but I didn't experience it.
I'm so glad you went to k-con (and I am extremely jealous!! haha). k-con was already amazing enough when I was just streaming it on my computer, I can't even imagine what it was like to be there?!?! I literally cannot wait for another SMTOWN because I really, really need to see them in person.
Yeah, I know, Kris Watch 2013 really tested a lot of EXO fans' patience. There were some fans who did not like Kris that much and were getting tired of us Kris stans whining and crying every day. But it seriously was so worrying ;~; It would have been worrying had it been any EXO member, but it made me realize how much a part of EXO Kris is and how much I love him. (It really warms my heart when a non-Kris stan says that his prolonged absence made them appreciate him more.) Some days I wanted to tell myself to stop worrying so much and get a grip and focus on the happy things but I really couldn't. I remember thinking, wow, I did not sign up for this when I first got into EXO. (Becoming an EXO fan has so full of crazy ups and downs; I would have never predicted any of this!!) But I couldn't quit ;A;
Even without the lack of activity, my love is still strong
I think this is one of the most surprising parts for me, to be honest? Before EXO, I didn't have only one #1 favorite group; I liked Beast, CN Blue, SS501, and Big Bang and they all rotated through the #1 spot for me. Once the current favorite group went inactive, I moved onto one of the other three lol. But EXO stopped MAMA promotions since the end of the summer and, yes, they've had concerts and overseas activities here and there, but they've been largely inactive (especially the past three months). It has really surprised me that I've actively stuck with EXO for so long, even through periods of uncertainty (like Wolf and Kris Watch 2013) and with no sign of a comeback in sight. This made me realize that even when I grow too old to fangirl everyday, EXO will still have a very special place in my heart.
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