After the breakup I decided to write the epic story of Brendon and Ryan. As time wore on I realized that by the time I finished it, there would be no one left in fandom to read it. I don't really have the heart anymore for bandom, anyway. But here's the first part of the epic that never was.Upon meeting Ryan Ross, Brendon shook his hand and said ( Read more... )

This is an 1800s AU based loosely on ideas of male romantic friendship and my continuing fascination with the artistic clique that was Mary Shelley/Percy Bysshe Shelley/John William Polidori/Lord Byron. Mostly I just wanted to write Brendon and Ryan taking a bath together. Working title: The Year Without a Summer.Brendon doesn't even realize he's ( Read more... )

Set during the trip to Africa. It's weird how finding out the band actually broke up was what spurred me to write things and actually finish them. For some reason here I got really peevish about Brendon always having beer, onstage, in pics, etc.Brendon accessorizes with beer bottles like Ryan accessorizes with scarves and waistcoats and spats and ( Read more... )

And then 2009 asserted itself. This was written in a fit of angst after we found out Brendon moved to LA, but before we found out that Ryan moved there as well. Working title: How To Shoot At Someone Who Outdrew You.Ryan's lying comfortably on his back on the grass when a shadow looms over him and a toe connects with his side, prodding at him ( Read more... )

I posted this and talked further about this over at the Brendon/Ryan Revival meme of several months ago, but here it is again for kicks. The first paragraph is obviously more notes. It was originally going to GSF where Brendon and Ryan developed real feelings for each other while Spencer and Jon were just fucking around, and then this whole big ( Read more... )

Hurray for bb!Panic. This is one of my most bummer abandoned stories, because in my head it's like the sweetest domestic thing ever with angst and feelings and preciousness. But I like what there is of it.

Ryan brings Brendon a plant as an apartment-warming gift. He shows up just as Spencer and Brent are walking out the door.

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This is a Wild West AU where Ryan cross-dresses. I liked where it was going!It's not easy to miss when a new family comes to town in a city as small as Las Vegas, even with more folks coming in from up north every day. Las Vegas gets the vagabonds, the ruffians, the ones who found Carson City or Reno too refined and craved the lax gambling laws ( Read more... )